What if I am just putting a front?
What if I am just trying make things back to normal?
What if I am just a complicated girl who acts as a simple girl?
What if I am just a lesbian who simply love girls?
What if I am just someone who wants to be truly loved?
What if I am just a b!tch in everyone's eyes?
What if I am just meant to give peepo take advantage?
What if I am just a fcuker?
What if I am just a emo sad lil girl?
What if I am just in need of a warmth soul to be there for me?
What if I am just so lonely and upset in things around me?
What if I am just pretending to say I am okays?
What if I am just faking a sadness?
What if I am just lying for everything especially to myself?
What if I am just so in love with you?
What if I am just too hurt to tell myself a end to it?
What if I am just a foolish girl who believes in 2nd chances?
What if I am just a jealous idiot freak?
What if I am just want you to be there for me?
What if I am just making use of you?
What if I am just not so easy as it seemed?
What if I am just going to die right in front of you now?
What if I am just in love with you again?
What if I am just trying to love you once again?
What if I am just completely given up on you?
What if I am just expressing my thoughtS?
What if I am just going crazy everything around me?
What if I am just a ordinary girl who wants things right?
What if I am just losing myself and everything?
What if I am just lying to the words I am typing?
What if I am just a insane peanut butter head?
What if I am just only caring for the way you treat me?
What if I am just treating those who care as thrash?
What if I am just faking a lame-ness?
What if I am just a girl who is mentally disorder?
What if I am just a damn big sucker?
What if I am just a crybaby?
What if I am just hiding all my emotions?
What if I am just trying to cry but I can't?
What if I am just wanting to hold your care?
What if I am just resigning to Fate?
What if I am just crying so much in the inside without anyone knowing?
What if I am just trying to entertain myself with songs?
What if I am just going all crazy by typing?
What if I am just going all haywire right now?
What if I am just needing a listening ear to accompany me?

What if What if What if What if What if?

maybe if i'm almost all of this, i won't have any friends like i do have now. yeah, maybe. f.
LETS GO OUT! bye -.-

hello people. today i committed one crime and had four acidents.
i went down to play soccer with my cousins. i kicked the ball and it landed on my cousin's butt. then i kicked it another time and it flew down to the carpark. "BANG!" I hit a car. omg. i ran away with my cousins. we waited for the car to go away. haha. then we picked the ball and continued playing. omg. i feel v bad. when we were playing. i kicked the ball off court and it almost hit an old lady and two guys. and i broke my toe nail. wa, pain.

i've "promised" to ttfybyaamaaydnlmne
ok that's it
bye

hello people. it's been long since i'd blogged. the reason is MAINLY because of my computer break down. haha. exams are freaking long. i hate you and you hate me. we're quall day! its.

yay! i'm gonna slack all day after exams! nah. i don't think i can, study maybe. hell man.
camps and outings for the whole month for november fun! and proposal for the ug, almost finish! omg, JOY! it's more difficult than the sjab one. maybe cos i didn't do the one for sjab. and arghh. ok shan't elaborate. for the people going. i'm gonna try to ask for permission for certain people to go :D hope it'll work. JY! 3 more papers, everyone work hard man!

certain things can't be said and told to certain people. i only tell some people. so people whom i tell things to, you're important to me :D and i'm done. bye :D

hey people! haha. i'm at elina's house now. thanks for letting me use the computer man! i haven't used it for days. while. many wonderful and bad things happen. haha. but it's ok man! end-of year's coming, EVERYBODY WORK HARD! i'm deprived of the computer and food. i'm addicted to a show. ATTACK NO. 1 go watch it. it's FUN AND EXCITING! haha. :D
you know what? i rock! haha :D

got to go! bye.

My computer is spoilt at home :(
HAHA
HI :D

FUCK YOU LAH
NO THE POST ISN'T NICER

I'M GOING HOME!

Elaine has fanastic throwing skills but my catching skills just suck. :)

fuck. i'm super tired with life already. ALMOST EVERYDAY there'll be a time when i feel angry and everything. shant elaborate. if not it'll be boring. sister's psle coming up. she's asking me all sorts of things which i have to help her in. quite irritating sometimes. she's having some problems in school which i duno how to solve and give her v lame answers. my parents are suspecting something about me. which i duno why, but what they're suspecting is somehow true only that some are wrong. haha nvm. stop pissing me off people. although i won't show it but some know it. while others dun. bye.

it's just gonna be a normal day when nothing interesting will happen. it's different from the past two years already. everything's changing but i don't care now. it doesn't matter anymore.

hello. 22 AUGUST COMING OK. AND SO IS 28 PREPARE TWO PRESENTS IF NOT ALL ER. just prepare la huh :D
i cannot believe it! 10 more days :D but i guess it won't be as surprising as it was last year. it's ok. :D
and i'm starting to study. not really going in to study just reading and flipping. hah. ok anw, good luck everyone! i'm gonna make a phone call already
byebye! ELAINE I KNOW SOMETHING! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

go puma! we'll do it. memorise our song -.-
movitate me ok ANYONE. better do so.
lets see. my birthday is coming! yay 32 august. don't know what to buy right? ok here's the list of WHAT I WANT :D
1)a backpack
2)a wallet
3)a basketball
4)a soccer ball
5)my kipling bag
6)something that only some people know
7)a bigger bed :D
8)shirts.

quite demanding huh? i'll add on to it. when i think of more :D haha.

seems like the whole world knows about this matter. why?

i'm gonna shut-up. so people who i think i can tell my stuff to, you'll know soon. if not. ask me yourself.
what's the point of being so nice but in the end, i get nothing but quiet-ness. whatever ok.

i make v nice sentences. well, that's what i think. see.

i'm not a monster, i'm a robot. this one. must say in my language :D
the problem is, i don't have a best friend
thing thang thung
bing bang bong
tralala, wo ai ni, come on out and play with me :D sing it.
you never FUCKING care about me.

lala. ok wadever. badmood.

you're making me piss, asshole.

i love you you love we are happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you won't you say you love me too.

i miss my primary school days, when everything was so innocent and pure.

last night my sister taught me math. although the explanation is good. but some things. omg horrible. i was suppose to bring a bowl of soup down and go up in 5 seconds. WHICH IS OBVIOUSLY IMPOSSIBLE. cos it's soup and will spill. it's not like the bowl is empty. i reached up at her room in about 30 seconds later. guess wad? she made me pump 20 times. and not only that. squats 10 times. madness. if i don't do the punishment, she won't teach me. lame huh. and she gave me tons of homework. well, i'm glad i have my sister.

today. morning. assembly. animation thing thang thung! the instructor showed the same powerpoint that he showed to us last time. and our video was shown. well, it sure brought back some wonderful memories :D animation rocks! poa lesson. said the 1 2 3 thing again. greeted. then like that. next, recess then chinese? math then BASKETBALL! omg. so fun! v long never play already. well. didn't score any. i am lousy. i became v red like wad i was last time. IF ANY PEI HWA PEOPLE IS GONNA READ THIS! RMB HOW I LOOKED AFTER EVERY GAME ON SATURDAY? red, brown and wet. but i don't stink :D i miss basketball so much! SOMEONE PLAY WITH ME NOW! I HOPE IT WOULD BE YOU TO ASK ME PLAY. three pointer 2 times or was it one time? wa. hit the ring then bounce out. defended. and mr tan went. v good peishi v good. haha. until 224. then up to take english test. that english test. SO -.- the whole paper was comprehension. was too lazy to do the lst one. just used common sense to do it. blah. in the night, had some photo-shooting thing. wa so fun! except for the make-up part. slept next morning.

18 july
morning. had pe. HOCKEY! had a game. at first orange t-shirts+mr tan vs the others. LEADERS! hhaa :l then switched team after we scored 2. played and played i scored 1. haha! the only point for the other team. that means 2-1 :D heard from many other classes that there were injuries in their classes. BUT OURS DID NOT HAVE ANY. whoa. surprise surprise. was dripping sweat or water. cos the droplets dripping down NOT SALTY AT ALL. but i didn't pour water over my head of course. it was the natural thing. but it's just that it isn't salty. after that. WA PIANG EH. STOMACH PAIN. i assumed that there was pain cos i'm hungry -.- but the pain was, TERRIBLE! eek. had trouble standing up and sitting down. aiya, almost everything i do causes the pain. ahha. recess. blah then more lessons. slept and woke up. played with that guy's hair cos he played with mine. u ARE SO DEAD! westmall after school. ate. drew. felt V cold. see math. and home. :D i wanna sleep but i can't cos i'm not allowed to. ok byebye.

tralala, wo ai ni, come on out and play with me.

TO ANYONE! who wants to know my last words before i die, ask me :D i'll be glad to tell you. really.
and to you. the secret message to you is in my phone :D but you won't know where i put it. LOL.

this is quite a long post already huh. SO PEOPLE! I'VE UPDATED. start reading :D more people visit=more posts :D haha

WHY? into depression. ok not that bad. just moodless mood. yup. sorry guys. these few days uh. pardon me ok. sorry

kayaking today. the morning was SO cold. cos it was raining. headed down to pasir ris. split into groups. the instructor for my group, charlene was. HOT. chio okk :D but too old. too bad. if not uh. hehe. ok JK. don't jealous uhh. haha. then swimming drills. then duno wad. AND CAPSIZE DRILL. omg. scary. i almost died. we were suppose to flip over the kayak then pat three times then come up. wa. water gush down the nose and ears and eyes. as what people said. btu didn't happen to me. I'M PRO :D started kayaking. WA ALOT OF RAFT UPS. and i can kayak v fast. not haolian la. but really v fast. was in a single kayak. cannot balance properly. ALMOST capsize alot of times. haha. after that. shore then debrief before that. brought back the kayaks. OMG HEAVY! oh ya! i forgot still got this rescue part. must lift yourself up to the kayak and move forward. wa the thighs v pain. those wearing fbts. haha :D cos the shorts will be pushed back quick alot so be careful people. trip back to school. blah. end of day. KAYAKING'S FUN! test tomorrow. i'm gonna pass it :l well maybe not.

i think you know it. but you're just acting that you don't.
i can't wait to fall in love, with you. you can't wait to fall in love, with me. this just can't be summer love.

PEOPLE TAKING THE KAYAKING TEST TOMORROW GOOD LUCK! and people going for the lesson soon. have fun! you're there to learn and have fun. so don't get into trouble. JUST BE DARING!
that girl's hot :D

peishi

WA! GLOBAL WARMING! i'm sweating like a stupid person. from my hair, forehead, back and even my eyebrows. wa very hot man! at least, my sweat. can be cleaned on someone :D haha. today went for qams. for no reason. haha. then to westmall with zijian bought her stuff walked back to interchange. saw xz then walked back to wm with her. then walked back to interchange again. haha. well. youth day thang tomorrow. good luck to those people performing! band etc. SERIOUSLY PEOPLE. SAVE THE EARTH. if not. i'm gonna die due to loss of water. go people! save the Earth!

the trip to batam was, AWESOME! woke up at 7+. headed down to harbour front. got bfast at macdonalds. up to the boat on i forgot wad time. before that, at the terminal, while waiting. my sister and i took CRAZY photos. they look really -.- then reached batam. first pit stop. sea sports. while, we were the only family playing the parachute thing. so the rest had to wait for us. HAHAHA. at first. my sisters and my grandmother didn't wanna fly up. in the end we all did fly up. SHIOK-NESS ok. next stop. go kart :D my sister and i drove. with 2 indian people. WA THEY ARE FAST DRIVERS. they drove like super fast. i thought i was already going very fast. but they were going faster. stupid people. overtake me. haha :D then next lunch. after that to a polo store. i bought the windbreaker :D and shirts. then to a temple. then to a shopping mall. while. celine. i DID walk around to find your thing. BUT to no avail. cannot find. but i have a better idea on how u can present yourself muahaha. then boat back and home. UNTIL NOW I STILL CAN FEEL MY HEAD MOVING LIKE THE WAVES. up and down. suck. like spinning in a washing machine!

milk run.
was suppose to meet people at a coffee shop. but in the end i was late. met them in school. got sppointed to class, 2n2. omg. wa they make my blood boil. st john is bad enough, this class, is worse. then walked around clarke quay. we had 10 more minutes to complete like 2 km or so. i guess we were too honest to walk the whole thing. MOST PEOPLE TOOK SHORT-CUTS >:( haha. after that. we took the last bus back to school. before that we were chlling out outside a restaurant. i was making a fool out of myself. then soon, isabelle join me. then togeter. we walked around playing and joking. while, it's definetely a good thing. cos we make MANY people laugh and smile. rather than having them to give the -.- look. soon. they started to do wad i was doing. the leader thing. guess i'm quite influencial huh :D it was quite embarrasing doing all those things. especially in public. but who cares :D took alot of pictures. AND that person who loves nature ALOT. went round taking photos. and asked many people to take with her. except for me. so bad right. SHE WENT TO SO MANY PEOPLE BUT NOT ME. i have the evidence. YOU ARE SO DEAD MAN. haha.
frankly speaking, it's good to see people laughing at your jokes. even people whom i don't know laugh at me. I DUNO WHAT I DID TO MAKE THEM LAUGH. haha. i was being myself and not acting out "myself" like. you know.
RIGHT NOW, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M TYPING. MY HEAD IS SPINNING. haha. so, pardon me. while I UPDATED OK.

au revior :D

WAD THE HELL! I TYPED A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS and poof! all gone. WHY WHY WHY? ARGHH. at least i updated :D
WHILE, HEAVEN'S NOT ON MY SIDE MAN! MY BILLS ARE NOT PAID. AND MY DAD WON'T PAY THEM FOR ME. FOR I DUNO WAD REASON. NOW I CANNOT DO ANYTHING WITH MY PHONE! for so long. i've saved so much messages, IN THE END. ARGHH! and connection got a HUGE ERROR. mummy! come back soon and help me :(
stupid bill. tralala.
OH YA! MY SONG!
tralala, wo ai ni, come on out and play with me :D
want the notes ask me :l
tralala :D
peishi rocks!
OH YA!
Can The Xylophone Laugh?

wad the hell. HOW CAN U CHANGE A PERSON'S PERSONALITY JUST LIKE THAT? and what's your problem uh? JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WEAR A SKIRT YOU'RE NOT GONNA GIVE ME TUITION? wad? does wearing a skirt make me a different person? NO! come on la -.- and wad? YOU TELL MY PARENTS ABOUT ME NOT WEARING A SKIRT AND ALL. now whenever we go out, they'll want me to wear a skirt. AND I HAVE NO SKIRT AT ALL? unless you're talking about the school skirt. SO WHAT IF MY DRESSING IS IMPROPER FOR A GIRL? you tell me SO WHAT? i'm just going for tuition. i wil dress the way i want to dress. DON'T YOU DARE TO CHANGE ME. try me one more time AND U'LL GET IT. i will walk out on you.and those who say i'm changing, maybe i am BUT I THINK THAT I'M NOT CHANGING. gosh. how i hate my life nowadays.SHUT THE HELL UP!
AND MY MOTHER THINKS I'M A LESBIAN JUST BECAUSE OF THE WAY I ACT AND THE WAY I DRESS. while most probaby i am one. WHO CARES MAN?

i think my parents are millionaires!
today went for a it shopping spree. but first clothing.
went vivo city to wait for my sisters to finish tuition. my mother went into this shop called GAP. wa! the things expensive like WHOA! my mum chose pieces of long pants. one for me one for my big sister and one for her. the price tag. GUESS HOW MUCH? $89.90! for one. OMG. EXPENSIVE! siao. and bought 3.
then went to millenia walk. walked around. bought 2 ipod nanos. WA! the price was close to $500! maybe more. then went to harvey norman. bought a speaker. dno how much. then 2 mp3s! one for my ma and one for my sister. then walk and walk. THEN WE BOUGHT A LAPTOP. and adding on to insurance and stuff. wa. u should have seen the receipt. OMG. this is the first time i see my parents spending so much.
i cannot imagine how my mother shops. she goes to all those branded shops and places to buy. how much would it cost? hmm. AND ADDING ON TO THIS QUITE BIG HOUSE AND 2 CARS. wow. they're VERY RICH INDEED. i feel proud of myself :D BUT NOW I HAVE TROUBLE PUTTING SONGS INTO THE IPOD. I NOOB :( i finished those two mp3s already. put songs and blah.
sjab camp in 2 days. duno whether it'llbe a success or a failure. it'll most probably be a failure anyway -.-
still trying hard for the laptop stuff and now this computer is NOT WORKING PROPERLY. the internet server. OH PIECE OF SHIT.
whatever :D ta! wish me good luck with these electronic stuff. GOSH HAVE TO PUT SONGS FOR MY MA MY BOTH SISTERS AND THE LAPTOP. IT'LL TAKE A LONG TIME.

one question: DO YOU KNOW ANYONE WHO IS BETTER THAN ME? answer my question :D
quotes: learning without thought is labour, thought without learning is perilous :D

whatever. AND ANSWER MY QUESTION!
peishi :D

WAD ALICIA DID! GREAT JOB :D i found it from your blog