告诉我，你爱我吗？

oh, happybirthdaytopeishi :D

GREATEST THANKS TO ALL WHO'VE GIVEN ME WISHES AS WELL AS PRESENTS :D

in the morning, met doris at her voiddeck at 625. went to eat at the coffee shop at the interchange. damn full -.- then went to school oh ya, and doris gave me six stress ball. GIRL! DO I LOOK THAT STRESSED TO YOU? haha she said, if i hated someone, i can write their names on the ball and throw it around HAHA. then headed to school. had many wishes by many people. namely, er, i forgot. but celine, chris, elaine they all sang a "one-sentence" birthday song. HOR? haha. OH YA OH YA, dannya gave me a story book. should be inspiring, thanks senior :D then cheryl ho! SHE GAVE ME A BLACK BASKETBALL. omg. shocked!! nice mannn. thanks junior :) went back to class, had more wishes and handshakes. read daphne's storybook. interesting! while, was very bored after finish reading. then jiaxin called me out of class and gave me a letter and present. THANKS. to jiaxin and the other girl for passing the pesent and mavis for providing it? :D hehe. so recess, went with gang then zijian pulled me away from them and led me to the 4 TOPAZ people. haha. this time round it was special, instead of having a cream cake they always buy, it's a handmade brownie with a muffin in the middle. haha!! EFFORT BY THE F&N PEOPLE. haha. thanks for making me as the guinea pig :D well, turned out to be nice!! hopped around between the celebration and the canteen. mother tongue lesson. damn boring. i dropped coleen's psp. SORRY GIRL! HEHE. and after school went to sjab room. put everything down and went to basketball court to watch the guys play. a girl named rebecca called me. she said she needed to pass me something. HAHAH! ok yup, so soon, i met with her. the girl from cheerleading. OHHH. with mavis. she passed me a cake. was quite shocked! thanks mannn. seriously :D you've spent loads of time preparing huh. thanks! then went to westmall for maym, ate with celie, christine, elaine and winnie. ok, the food was, ~. haha. quite retarded there. we were playing a fool or rather i was playing a fool. they bought a blue dog and those baby thing. forgot what's that. HAHA. thanks :D headed back to school. still had the cake mavis gave. so celebrated again with the sjab people. haha. i thought it would be my lucky day and wouldn't get smashed with the cake. BUT IN THE END I GOT SMASHED. dumbass. dad called and say he would reach in 20 minutes. so went to deliver cake. HAHA. yup. i flew in the rain. nice :Danw, sorry for waking you up again :D while, dad came and fetch me home. and slacked? and slack more. ahah. while just a few more minutes till my birthday ends. HAHA!

THANKS TO:
people who wished and gave me presents :D

celine, you still owe me one. so YA. haha. although you've forgotten :D

bye old and young people :D STUDY HARD!

hmm. don't know what i did in my previous life.
is this really the "obstacle" i have to overcome now?

got told off again. DAMN IT.
the damn graduation thing. HEADACHE! haha. IRRITATING LIKE FUCK?! probably even worse than the China Trip one. because apparently that one was much easier. DUH? I DON'T CARE!

and so, i forgot what i wanted to type. but i do remember that i wanted to rant everything out from wo de xin! HAHA. oh, MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING. by treating myself, i might not come on that day so i can sleep HAHAHA.

while, still quite upset about the betrayal thing. F.

alright. chemistry mock test tmr. BYEBYE.
btw, we created a malay song. mixed with english of course. with the tune of a traditional malay song. i can't believe i created a phrase "nasi lemak briyani" HAHAHA. bye assholes :D

i'm doing it all wrong. DAMN IT.
fuck.
now i know the feeling of betrayal. WTH.

just realised this picture is nice :D HAHAHA. -.-

alright. so, school in the morning. what did i have? hmm....
OH RIGHT, ENGLISH. oral practise.
then CHINESE, paper doing.
MATH. god damn it was boring. because all we do are sums and sums and more sums. although it's for our own good. BUT IT'S BORING FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
RECESS.
POA. woohoo... HAD "TEST" while it wasn't really a test because everyone was talking and discussing the answers as well. EH BUT GUESS WAD. I PROVIDED ANSWERS. well not every one DUH? just mst of it. OMG PEOPLE! THERE'S AN EXTRA SMART PERSON TO ASK ABOUT POA. me! come on mannn HAHHAHA.
CHEMISTRY. did the experiment thing thang thong again..
PHYSICS. mcq test. I KNOW HOW TO ANSWER. while most of it. I'M BECOMING A SMART PERSON BABY!!~
after school, stayed back to do the class presentation. spent time looking for the dear MR LAI. was desperate enough to ask MDM LEOW about his whereabouts. HAHA. MDM LEOW IS SO NICE MANNN!!! people, mdm leow is not a mean machine. she's very nice. just that sometimes, she's frustrated because we do things that are not appealing to her. HAHA. so yup. so did the presentation thing. lilin and rowena did in the class while i finished up with the compositions. DAMN IT. hahah. so to macdonalds to complete the essay. homed to finish newspaper report. and off to tuition, yet again -.-
and now, i'm here HAHAHA. this sounds like a freaking diary -.-
going to collapse any soon...

you know. i just realised. WHEN YOU'RE CONFIDENT ABOUT YOURSELF WHEN DOING SOMETHING, YOU'LL ACTUALLY SUCCEED! so people, confidence is the key. be confident with what you're doing and you'll eventually succeed.

WORK HARD PEOPLE! 1 more week or so to prelims! and 67 days to O'LS. i'm so dead. -.-

BYE!

to people who thinks i'm in love with enqi.

sorry to break your heart but I'M NOT.

seriously. WHO WOULD FALL FOR HER.

oh my goodness. SO YA PEOPLE, I DON'T LIKE HER.

SO YUP. STOP SAYING THAT.
i'm in love, yes, but definitely not with tokenqi. -.- THAT'S SICK MANNN. eew?! haha.
YOU WANT TO KNOW WHO I'M IN LOVE WITH??? haha. don't tell you leh :D come ask me, i might tell you. MAYBE I WILL :D

ok ya. that's the purpose of blogging today. can't believe i wasted my time just to confirm this stupid thing. HAHA. bye peeps :D

haha, toured singapore today.
morning had school national day celebration. wasn't as good as before. DUH? BECAUSE DON'T HAVE ME INSIDE WADD. haha. kidding. then after school, lunched with celine, christine, huldah, zijian and brenda in lot 1. then, was quite early to be home yet. so called everybody i know. finally, came to a concluson to go with the sjab people. they were at causeway, eating seoul garden. so i sat there with them. and cheryl ho made me grape float. IT'S NICE MANNN. thank you. then walked around to find something. to no avail though. then travelled back to lot 1. walked a little more. DON'T HAVE? then travelled to lavendar. damn it. my legs were killing me. so walked around the army market. round and round. finally. got it. then, too tired to carry on. so took a cab to deliever the magnificent gift. then home. FINALLY.
wth, pain can? but it's worth though.
well, celine tan, hoped you like the present :D
study hard.
bye :D

two words, TODAY SUCKS.

got shoot by people.
in the morning, somebody.
while, they had to settle some scores because of some matter. then i broke a promise. i wasn't there for her. OH WELL, if you think i wasn't there. just carry on thinking that way. because in actual fact is that, when i reached there, all of you walked off already. what do you want me to do? aiya. felt guilty about it. like when you're suppose to be there and you're not. i'm sorry. although it wouldn't mean much. i guess over-protection and care are just worthless thoughts in my head. the thought of wanting peace ends up worse than a war. oh well. hell. and now, i have no idea what to do. i'm already to blame and i admit that i'm in the wrong. but i just can't do anything about it. ok so, lalala

in between the day.
GOT TOLD OFF FOR BEING BIASED. don't know what's wrong also. while,EVERY TIME NOW, at least once a day, i'll be accused of being biased. WHAT CAN I SAY? i don'tknow what i did. but. OH WELL.

after school, mr rani.
so 5 girls names were being recorded in the class diary last thrusday. i'm included. then mr rani wanted to find us. so found. then he talked. AND ALL HIS FUCKING ATTENTION WAS DIVERTING TO ME. it's more like getting blamed for making all those noise.starting all those conversations that are not supposed to be started. for having a loud noise but used in the wrong way. WHAT THE!? and he said many teachers complained about me. as if i'm the one creating nuisance in class. so now, every teacher in dunearn thinks that peishi's a fucking loser who disrupts classes. and teachers from our class even the "angel" complained about me. OH WHAT THE HELL, I'M A BAD STUDENT. i ought to get a personal diary huh? get your facts right first please. and he said we are nonsense. YA WHATEVER ALRIGHT? somehow i feel that i deserve all these. all the blame should be on me. it's ok.

well, after that, i shed. DUH!? haha elaine, you didn't see again

so many big blows in one day. the day when you have to swallow down every of your guts? when you have to bow down to something that you do not have to? when you get told off because of a broken promise? when you still have a give a fake smile even though you don't have to? when you're being treated like a dog, taking orders from people without even saying a thing or letting people know how i feel?

anw thanks to 4TOPAZ girls. coleen for lending me psp to distress. sabrina for breaking my finger. AND THE PEOPLE WHO MADE ME REALISED MY MISTAKES.

for the first time in secondary school life, i hate MJT. only for that moment. but then, soon, it's ok already. just hope that his moodswings doesn't affect his way of teaching.
OK PEOPLE, THIS IS WRITTEN OUT OF ANGER. the tears of hatred and anger is gone. so this, shall be gone too.

to somebody: i can't do what you advised me to do. because i just can't. choices have consequences. and if i make that choice, one word, DEAD.

whoa, i realised, when i am angry or have alot of things in my mind. i post damn long!! woohoo.
actually, since the afternoon, all was well, until a message came. SIGH! don't know what's happening in my life now. why must all these things happen now? maybe there're obstacles that i have to pass in order to move on. just like how my canvas is like. SO I AM GOING TO OVERCOME ALL THESE. and carry on with my life. one more thing. ANT INVASION!!!
there're like so many mini ants crawling around. yup. gross.
ok byebye. PEOPLE WHO ARE DOWN BETTER CHEER UP! because by being upset, you're just wasting your life away. LIFE IS HORT, appreciate every moment you have in your life. try to move away all your sorrows away and let joy and happiness in. LIFE WILL BE MORE ENJOYABLE. right!? :D

just one more thing to add. for some people who have no idea, why i wouldn't tell them which negative mood i am in? BECAUSE IT'LL DAMPEN THE SPIRITS. GET THAT? lets say if i tell one that i'm very sad because of some matter. that person might not be able to do anything right? so might as well just carry on with the current tone and everything? instead of spoiling everything. ONE PERSON GET HURT BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE GET HURT TOGETHER. right? i'd rather suffer in silence than let anyone else suffer together. because sometimes, it's not their fault that i'm suffering.

I CAN SAY ALL OF THIS FOR I AM CHIOH PEI SHI! hehehe

what's up people? tell you what. i'm in love. damn it. bye :D

since she's that "perfect" then go be with her. i'm a piece of worthless shit. i can't do anything to please anyone. GO AND DIE PEISHI!

hello :D i'm back.

oh well, many things happen. one major thing is, I STARTED PAINTING MY CANVAS! woohoo. but guess what? it's not a good thing. i spent SO MUCH TIME trying to paint only 1/100 of the canvas. BASTARD! how mann? i'll try. and and, guess what? I'M ADDICTED TO PSP! the game dj max? is it? whatever. sorry to people whom i borrow to play from :D EH I'M A PRO OK. i want a psp :( DAMN IT! so, yesterday, art for 5 periods, ran around with canvas. AHAHA! then recess then math, had to do quadratic equations. THE QUESTIONS WERE LOUSY. well, finished it very quickly, with assist. DUH? then i was the only one done, so cannot go through yet, GUESS WHAT I DID? nothing extraordinary, just play dj max! HAHAHA. then had poa tutorial, sapphire stillhaing chinese stuff, so had to wait, guess what i did while waiting? PLAY DJ MAX! ok then poa tutorial. TOPAZ ONLY 4 PEOPLE ATTEND. saddening. while, it's only ruiqi, rowena, lilin and i. three of them were tempted to go because they didn't know how to do. while, i was the most diligent person :D:D:D ok bhb. i did finish ok?! impressive? while, asked for help from the pro people from sapphire of course! the parent-volunteer teacher was busy teaching the boys and seldom came over to teach the girls. so, LIKE THAT LOR? yup, then after that almost got my finger broken again. went to play basketball! wth cadman and kahmeng. but as soon as the ncc people came, their moods changed, because it wasn't fair. so yup. then sjab-ed then basketball again! with mr tan, alan, shawn, bowei, guanteck and WHAT'S HIS NAME? i forgot. played match. then homed. woohoo, basketball rocks man :D

it was because i didn't want any lip gloss, you looked me in the eye, walked towards me. :O and just like that, our lips met. you were serious about it. after 4 seconds, i pushed you away and said, don't play. why did i do that omg. maybe i should have said, you have a boyfriend already. then i might get an answer. damn it! forget it.

i think i'm going to write a story. really. ANY SUPPORTERS? YES NO? who cares. no one. hahaha.

Each time i see you. The heart of mine just keeps aching. I regretted not having the guts, regretted being a scaredy cat, regretted not letting my feelings made known. And now, look what'd happened? If i could have just said it earlier, everything would have been different. I miss the month July in year 2007, the time when everything happened. We behaved as though no one was around. You knew what was going on, but didn't say anything. I didn't listen to anyone who commented and gave critics. I just knew it was you. The one who brings the smile on my face everyday. Everytime i do something not rightful and not suppose to do, you just allowed me to carry on and not say anything. I believe you felt something. It was some other people who told you different stories, some other people who freaking controlled your mind, some other people who thought what we were doing was wrong, then our relations drifted. I stopped doing what i did. I thought what i did was best for us. But then i realised. It's good for you and bad for me. I All i wish for now, is for time to go back. When we could start all over again, and spend the times we always spend together. I wouldn't mind making any sacrifices, it all didn't matter. Just that one time, when i could tell you how i felt. And you responded. No matter what the answer would be would not even matter to me. Now this urge and sensation of telling you how i feel keeps coming. But i just cannot let it out. Because if i do, it's DOOMDAY. while, seeing you with your partner hurts sometimes, but guess what? as long as you're happy with him, it's fine. really, it is. Maybe i'm thinking too much. But you're trying to, i don't know? but what you're doing, is just so hurtful! everytime i want to give you something, i will have to stop myself and give it to someone else because i can't. i really can't continue to do that already. i'm glad that you remembered the times we spent last year. and wearing that _ during the meal. you even remembered what i said to you last year. did it make an impact? i hope it did. whatever you're doing now, just don't hurt yourself alright. i'm happy for you, i really am. i'll still be standing here, watching you.

people who figured out this message, DON'T ANYHOW THINK UH. what you're thinking, not confirmed then ask me. i may or may not tell you.

OK PEOPLE. here i am. asked by LAO DA syazwani to update.

today is my suay(unlucky) day mann!! seriously. damn unlucky!
in the morning, the sore throat worsened. f. then i bathed in cold water, then here comes the flu. but soon it became alright. 4topaz was called to move up during assembly. whatever -.- then form teacher time. math. while, mjt went through questions of the paper. DAMN IT. while, all wrong :( and due to carelessness somemore. IRRITATING. during poa class, miss gwee walked in. NATHASHA WAS SINGING AND DANCING. ok damn funny. haha. then cme. wa mr lai black face. OH WELL. i asked about the project thing, and he gave me an answer not linking, OH BOTHER. HERE COMES THE MOST SUAY THING THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN. while, after cme, lilin, rowena, zijian, liesa and i. we went to the toilet, without a pass. ezan and shazwan, they were loitering outside the class. came to know that miss au locked us out when ezan came up to the girls toilet to call us. ok, so we went down. miss au started spouting invalid stuff to us. like ezan going up to see us. HUH!? k then she starting talking about us having no manners. ok nvm, we deserved it. afterall, we did break a school rule.while, english lesson, while, i was listening. but the class became too rowdy. miss au went down to find the dm. wth. JUST AS THE DM WALKED IN, I WAS HELPING SOMEONE TO CHARGE THEIR HANDPHONE. wth, SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME. so for the first time, i had very fast reaction. i pulled ruiqi's charger and the other charger and stuff it in my bag. WITH RUIQI'S PHONE AND THE EARPIECES. mind the s behind. while, our class was given the discipline diary AGAIN! this time, after school everyday, we were suppose to meet the dm. WTH. after school. met mr rani at the concourse. the whole class was there. DUH? those with long nails had to cut. that's what happens if you have a dd. damn it. while, here comes the most horrible thing of the day. ezan, shazwan, liesa, lilin, rowena, zijian and i were called out. hell. mr rani went. "SL, SL, SL, SL, SL, SL, SL, just one week after you step down and you blah blah." he called us bloody wad? and hypocrites. got stripped off student leadership. which means the sl on our cca draft is taken off. and put into pending. so we have to be VERY GUAI people to earn that back. don't understand? ok the more simple way. why in the cca draft sl is not included? BECAUSE WE WENT TO THE TOILET. easy? haha. ya because we went to the toilet. and miss au having a bad mood, our sl thing FLEW AWAY. ok, then chinese listening. then homed with _. studied and felt so super duper weak and went to sleep. before sleeping, all i had was a fever and a sorethroat. and in between my sleep, i felt something pushing up my nose. ps: only the fan was on. i went, "shrmmmmmmmm shrmmmmm" can you imagine that noise? the one when you suck everything up your nose. while, the mucus was stuck and i had a hard time breathing. I FELT LIKE DYING SERIOUSLY. DON'T UNDERSTAND AGAIN? very simple. a heavy head, with a blocked nose and a painful throat. HOW'S THAT? great huh.

LAO DA IS WAITING FOR ME TO POST FINISH :D:D
OK LA I'M DONE ALREADY! byebyebye.

how to fall in love with two people at the same time?

ok sl dinner, let the pictures talk again :D
I'M THE MAN YO!

some dumb people. LOL. yeshun and darryl!

kianjiat talking to? MARVIN!! :D haha.

TABLE 8. it was crazy, really.

SJAB! :D

ALL THE SLS IN SJAB! woohooo.

MY BROTHER MAN! OPPOSITE COLOURS!

part of bu san bu si! without kianjiat.

sim jiaqi, i still remember what you did after that uhh :D

lewhao and chishuen's dumb faces! act cool uh!

INTRODUCING THE BAND, BU SAN BU SI! ok i blend in right? i know that. sheesh.

it's not what you think guys.

beauties.

dynamic duo.

part of 4 topaz girls!

4 topaz! without danielle, dalton, ezan, shazwan.

4 topaz without dalton and danielle

again, without dalton and danielle

DATE NUMBER 1, ONG PEIYU.

WHATEVER.

pretties

DATE NUMBER 2, CHRISTINE WONG.

DATES NUMBER 3 & 4, WINNIE ONG AND GERMAINE ANG.

THE SEXY! BRENDA.

DATE NUMBER 4 AGAIN, GERMAINE ANG.

4 topaz! without danielle.

DALTON BOK! AND MY DATES 5 & 6, FOO LILIN AND WONG ZIJIAN

DATE NUMBER 7, CHIN YI CHUIN

DATE NUMBER 8, DORIS KWOH!

DATE NUMBER 5, FOO LILIN.

k this one, don't play play. this one my girlfriend. K JUST KIDDING, LATER SHE KILL ME UPSIDE DOWN AGAIN. THIS IS PEISHI'S RIGHTFUL DATE, SABRINA LIM!

SEE, omg, mine mine, all mine. K KIDDING, DON'T BREAK MY FINGER LA!

by far, the nicest picture i've taken. MY DAD! TAN ZUER! nice right? comment uhh.
ps: i didn't think the person on the left was me the first time i looked at it.

unglam pose number 1

unglam pose number 2.

unglam pose number 3

PEOPLE PEOPLE, THIS PERSON USED TO BE MY ORANGE, she's date number, er i forgot. oh number 9. hehe :D you look gorgeous huldah :D

i forgot her name. but she want to take a picture with me. ULIN! ya that's her name!!

junior, NURUL AMALINA!

SICKENING JUNIOR, NUR HAZIZAH BTE HAMZAH :D hehehe i was kidding.

the twins of the day. OH YA, the one on the right. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I EVER NEED IN MY LIFE, MUSTARD, know why she's important now? cos i need her for my hotdog :D hehe. k no offence. YOU'RE IMPORTANT REALLY. HOR ELAINE? she important to me leh. k so the most important girl, mustard, CELINE TAN.

winnie ong and mustard


handsome, cute, lawyer, businessman, be my date, i want you, you're mine, cool. there's more of it. but. :D

ALRIGHT, so, it was fun. ya quite dumb actually. the table i was at is so far back. so we missed out alot of fun. but self entertained ourselves. quite stupid. i felt touched man!! omg. and i could blend in with guys. really. hahaha! well, didn't take alot of pictures as compared to last year. AND DUMB DUMB MUSTARD DIDN'T TAKE A PICTURE WITH ME grr. nvm. hehe.

while, might post about it some other time. :D byebye people.

LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING FIRST. the flyer first, the dinner later.



TAN EE HONG!

at the TOP!

it was that high!!! :O

the machine :D

horizontal view?

KO TSZ TING!

NATHASHA! :D

YINGYUAN AND CHISHUEN!

F1 RACING TRACK

AGAIN, KO TSZTING!

random.

PART OR BU SAN BU SI! :D WITHOUT ME AND YINGYUAN :(

SU KAIJUN! :D

THE OTHER CUBICLE :)

CHIN YI CHUIN

LAO DA AND ME! so dark.

KTT & CYC

THE ZOOMED IN CHRISTINE AND ZIJIAN

discussion

WINNIE, LINGRONG, QIANMEI!

THE SJAB!

AND AGAIN :D

SIM JIA QI!

FIGURING OUT HOW THE CAMERA WORKS.

AND THEY POSE!

THE TICKET

ANYHOW


ok, here comes unglam pictures :D ENJOY!

what?!

first attempt

what a nice picture :D

poser.

irritating -.-

not prepared.

and prepared!

stupid foolilin. HAHAHA

AHH! nice nice.

HEHE :D

yay!

NATHASHA!!!! hahaha :D i hope she sees this.

HEHE!

WA!

crazy.

HAHAHA!

-.-


alright, so that's it. the flyer. many ugly pictures :D LOL.
post the ones for the dinner later. irritating leh. TAKE DAMN LONG TO LOAD. irritating. k bye people :D