i feel a bump on my forehead. i think i banged against something just now. it's painful la -.- oh, and it's 10:26pm here. what time is it there? HAHHAH. k going up now. goodbyexz.

hello everyone. hahaha
blogging from Jeju, Korea. it's almost freezing down here. :)
how's everyone? fine i guess. haha. thank goodness for this computer service provided. but there's only 1 computer -.-
going up real soon to sleep. got to wake at 5:20am tmr. taking a boat then i don't know go where and whatever. omg, did i mention that i have really annoying tour mates? hahah, gah -.- and no good looking people. maybe in Seoul.. got to think so much more here than in Singapore as there is really nothing much to do except follwing the tour guide. so don't mind if i go cranky or whatsoever.
okayxz, i really don't know what to type anymore. hahaha. so goodbye. will update through facebook or twitter if i can :)
see you! i miss you and you and you and you and you and you etc... <3

i hate the way you care too much.

trust me, it's not any single one of you. don't believe then ask me.

and i hate the way things are going now.

Hello. Am back.
The past 2 days had been crazy. Intensive basketball training. It's driving many of us crazy. Everyday we're going to have to train like that till 10 december. Oh manxz. Won't we collapse? I wonder.. My mind's in a whirl. There's like no purpose in life now. Nothing to do at home, no form of proper technology. Yes, i should start studying. I'm going to tell myself to study. Hahahaha. But the problem is, whether i'm going to listen to myself. So tied up with things and the worst part is, it doesn't have a smooth flow. It doesn't even go according to the clock. It all clashes at the same time at different venues. Hmm~ this is going to be hard.. Harder than i thought it would be. Gahhh.

I've been thinking, what if i hadn't been a coward? Would things change? Shicks, i should stop staring at ceilings. If not i'll have weird thoughts about everything. And i'll have flashbacks. If there was a memory erasing tool, that'll be cool. I can then erase bad memories and keep only the good ones. :)

Oh, did i mention that i met alot of people today. In the morning, had basketball. And met all the basketball people. Then went to westmall to eat, saw secondary school friends. After lunch, was waiting for little sister, then saw mavis frank and co. In the cinema, saw fadilla! And after the movie, saw my juniors :) then while going home, saw my primary school friend. Aiseh. :)

Now's like a real good weather to go to sleep :) i shall prepare myself for bed soon. Oh no i can't. It's still too early. Damnittt. Ok i shall pack my bag for tomorrow's training and meeting then head off to the sacks. :D

Alright, bye people. Take care and rest well :)


Should i tell you that time?
Should i say what was on my mind?
It's all too late, too late for anything to happen, you're taken and that's that. Oh whatever.

hello humans and aliens. i'm back on Earth.

i'm so zonked out. feel like i can't open my eyes since the morning. HAHHA. just came back from SLE camp. it was ~ shall not comment. OH, still have St. John tmr. WA, grrr. iron uniformmmm. clean bootssss and snip off hair. DAMN IT LA. another long day tmr. won't be surprised if i fall asleep though. k going off to iron. BYEXZ

i found pretty people in Singapore. Clarke Quay :)

since i've chose the path, i shall walk the path with no regrets. i shall not turn around and try to walk back, because if i do, i'll be lying to myself.

Good morning! Haha i'm in school now now now. And i saw a bruise on the joint of my index finger. No wonder in my dreams i was feeling uncomfortable -.- and now i remember how i got this bruise. I accidentally slam my whole hand onto the wall. That's why. Ouch.
Q is sitting beside meee. Telling me about her secondary school life. Hehe :) hope i don't get
any freaking abrasion at the wrong places again if not history of the officer course will repeat itself. And the worst part is rachel and lyndia will not be there to spray that stinging antidote on the abrasion. Sucks much. Ahhha. Did i mention that the bag for the camp is alot lighter than before! Maybe because i'm already used to heavy and bulky bags. It's really light as compared to last time. Yayness :)
Omg, i forgot to submit consent form. just called my dad. He must have been thinking what trouble i got into again, as usual. Oh well. The camp would be enjoyable and i'm still deciding on whether to hide my phone or surrender it.. Hmm, how? Haahahaha. Okayxz. Going to end off now.
Have fun in the real world and i'll be back on friday :) byexz. Oh and people who are having a's, know it's kind of late but all the best! :) especially index number 0260, Chioh Pei Rong. Hahaha. Don't stress uh queen! You're going to be lonely. Hahahahahaha. K relaxxx. Good luck :)
Byexz <3

am so hungry. feel like eating. oh bother, camp tmr. till friday. be gone for a while. so have fun in the real world :)

I was fiddling with the knife, wondering what I should do with it. Thoughts filled my mind, about the past, people's reactions, as well as the pain. What for make life more miserable, it will not make things a tiny weeny bit better. Just let it go and things will be okay, as always.

Yes, I live like that. Always saying that things are going to be okay. I won't normally say what's in my mind. I choose to bear with the consequences and just let it be. As time pass, everything will get better until the next one another problem occurs. Some say i'm going to flare up really soon at this rate of bottling up everything. Rest assure, it won't be anytime soon.

Hahahahha. Hehe :) I can write a book uh! So sophisticated.. Bet all of you must have been intrigued by what I typed :D right? K kidding,

Alright, some of you must know that I have been grounded for the week or more. Not sure if i'm even allowed to go for the sle camp. Sighh. Sometimes I feel that there's an extent to being worried. Yes you're worried but that doesn't really give you the authority of disallowing every single one of the activities that i have. Maybe you think that this way, things will be better. However, in fact, things would be worse. It's always ne bringing the problems to you but it's always not you that brings the problems to me. You didn't realize that by doing all that, people wip look at me in a different eye. Now it's not about what you want and expect from me. It's what and who I want to be. If I voice out, I'll be at fault and if I stay mum, I'll be at fault too. Oh well~

k another redundant post, but whatever. Don't care. Take care loves <3

who wants to buy me my cookies?

oh hello! I'm like in school right now. Attending the pre-camp for sle. Kind of sucks to be attending leadership camps and courses over and over again. From primary school to secondary school to even now at tertiary level. Oh well~ Mr Singh is currently speaking about leadership to us. zzz.

I think i was sleeping like a log yesterday. I reached home around 5+? Then i went to shower and just lied on the bed. slept all the way.. It was mad. Then at 1235, i woke up and saw thousands of messages! Hahaha. K no la, only about 10. Read all, replied a few, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 530 to turn off the alarm and read more messages. Mad, i slept for close to 12 hours. Woo, so amazing. And now i'm still tired. Gahhh.

K, mr singh is kind of knowledgable :) but it's still boringgg. Yawnsss.

Have been thinking alot lately, flashbacks of the past appear, and i realised, i'm like the dumbest person possible. Obviously, i'm not going to list my dumb facts out here (just in case some people think that i'm very smart. And they should continue to think that way.. :D) going to list it somewhere else. Ayeeee, i'm nothing but bored. Someone should entertain me now..

Have been leaving this space empty lately, probably because i haven't been using the computer as much as i did previously. Even now, using this phone to type the post. K, i'm typing nonsense now. The space i've been ranting to, is probably.. Hmm, my heart. Hahahahh. Sounds retarded.

Dorcas and Aaron told me to go see a doctor because of the way i've been eating. Hahahha. Omg. See a doctor? Mad. Oh, and my dad says, the family might be going to take a jab due to the rising of H1N1 in Korea, and we're going there. Manxz, hate it. Pain bodoh! Eeeeeeee, the thought of the needle -.- gahhhhh.

K i should stop typing, if not it'll be so long and boring. Ok this post was redundant. you just wasted your time reading, sorry! :)

OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD.....!!!!

S.H.E IS IN SINGAPOREEEEEEEEE. WALAO EHHHHHHHHHH! i should've known and then turn on the tv RIGHT AWAY to watch them. TOO BAD. it's too late :( AWW MAN. wth! i'm so sad! GAHHHHHHHHH. they're in SINGAPOREEEEEEE. shicks laaa..

oh well, nvm.

helloxz. finally i'm updating. yes and i can see the number of people coming dropping. HAHHA. i'm so exhausted by all the activities. seriously.. gahh. shall hang on, it's all going to end, very soon, hopefully. it's just energy-sucking! ahhhhhhhhhhh.

ooh, Bravery is my group for Advance Course. and they have been brilliant for the past 2 weeks. am very proud of them :) and also apologetic because i simply can't remember basic things such as theirpaper for discipline card and all. like wth i know, i'm like the worst officer ever. gahh. anything la. i'm sorry dear Bravery. but thank goodness for them if not i think i'll just collapse by now. they are so humourous and cheery! I LIKE! and at least they interact with each other except for some, hope they'll changee. HAHH. yes they will change. by the end of course. i believe they will. k anw, they have been the wall that kept me going on and going for the nco course. k THANK YOU DEAR GROUP. all the best for the rest of the course as well as the camp :)

and then, what more. i can't think anymore. brain block. HAHHA..

k anw, when i think of more things, i'll blog again. BYEBYE :)

feel like a damn ass. i deserve to die. bye. feel like cursing and swearing at myself, after recalling the past AND THE PRESENT.

i'm so exhausted. when i came online, got 77 new emails to be read. what the heckk. HHAHA. anw.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE TAN. you should know what i want to tell you. just lead the rest of your life in happiness :) and damn, i know you TOO WELL.

i'm so bored. but there's alot of things to do. k shall start doing them. BYEXZ.