Friday, December 25, 2009


i miss this cute little boy - mayghan. yeah, ever since christinewongxz came back from cambodia, i suddenly thought about the OCIP trip to Tanjong Pinang :(
i miss my roomies, i miss the people who went there, i miss the night reflections, i miss the food, i miss the pool games, i miss the bus rides to and fro the orphange and the hotel, i miss seeing the kids chasing after the bus, i miss the morning lessons with the kids, i miss listening to bahasa indonesia....
oh well.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

finally, after i don't know how long, i saw what i want to see. HAHA.

kay, my poor blog, have been left like that for 10034242329213947218 seconds or more! haha, 45 min to Christmas. So, advanced Merry Christmas everyone :)

this holidays were special. As in, as you all should probably know.. i'm grounded. so i didn't have the time to go out to buy presents or whatsoever. i decided to start a project, The "To Send my Love through Christmas" project. thought it was innovative at first, but when i started it, IT WAS SO. i don't know how to describe it. maybe i started really late! when i completed all 50+ or more of them, i literally shouted "HOORAY!" i sent out the cards to people who gave me their addresses on 23 December. and seriously shockingly amazingly, some people texted me and said they received the card already! HOW AWESOME IS THAT! i thought i was already late because i heard that it takes 3 days to send a letter! yeah, so some people confirmed that they received the letter. OMG. i hope no letters bounce back to me :(
oh there're still some for people who didn't give me their addresses. about just 10 more?
ooh well.. lets just hope that none of the letters get sent back to my house.

it's 3am now. and wth, i take so long to post. distracted by some other things.

i miss many people.

byexz.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

hello. i'm back from not touching the internet for ages. (while not really ages, jut 5 days.)
how's everyone? i'm so lost i don't know what to type. k bye.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

i feel a bump on my forehead. i think i banged against something just now. it's painful la -.- oh, and it's 10:26pm here. what time is it there? HAHHAH. k going up now. goodbyexz.
hello everyone. hahaha
blogging from Jeju, Korea. it's almost freezing down here. :)
how's everyone? fine i guess. haha. thank goodness for this computer service provided. but there's only 1 computer -.-
going up real soon to sleep. got to wake at 5:20am tmr. taking a boat then i don't know go where and whatever. omg, did i mention that i have really annoying tour mates? hahah, gah -.- and no good looking people. maybe in Seoul.. got to think so much more here than in Singapore as there is really nothing much to do except follwing the tour guide. so don't mind if i go cranky or whatsoever.
okayxz, i really don't know what to type anymore. hahaha. so goodbye. will update through facebook or twitter if i can :)
see you! i miss you and you and you and you and you and you etc... <3

Sunday, November 22, 2009

i hate the way you care too much.

trust me, it's not any single one of you. don't believe then ask me.

and i hate the way things are going now.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Hello. Am back.
The past 2 days had been crazy. Intensive basketball training. It's driving many of us crazy. Everyday we're going to have to train like that till 10 december. Oh manxz. Won't we collapse? I wonder.. My mind's in a whirl. There's like no purpose in life now. Nothing to do at home, no form of proper technology. Yes, i should start studying. I'm going to tell myself to study. Hahahaha. But the problem is, whether i'm going to listen to myself. So tied up with things and the worst part is, it doesn't have a smooth flow. It doesn't even go according to the clock. It all clashes at the same time at different venues. Hmm~ this is going to be hard.. Harder than i thought it would be. Gahhh.

I've been thinking, what if i hadn't been a coward? Would things change? Shicks, i should stop staring at ceilings. If not i'll have weird thoughts about everything. And i'll have flashbacks. If there was a memory erasing tool, that'll be cool. I can then erase bad memories and keep only the good ones. :)

Oh, did i mention that i met alot of people today. In the morning, had basketball. And met all the basketball people. Then went to westmall to eat, saw secondary school friends. After lunch, was waiting for little sister, then saw mavis frank and co. In the cinema, saw fadilla! And after the movie, saw my juniors :) then while going home, saw my primary school friend. Aiseh. :)

Now's like a real good weather to go to sleep :) i shall prepare myself for bed soon. Oh no i can't. It's still too early. Damnittt. Ok i shall pack my bag for tomorrow's training and meeting then head off to the sacks. :D

Alright, bye people. Take care and rest well :)


Should i tell you that time?
Should i say what was on my mind?
It's all too late, too late for anything to happen, you're taken and that's that. Oh whatever.

Friday, November 13, 2009

hello humans and aliens. i'm back on Earth.

i'm so zonked out. feel like i can't open my eyes since the morning. HAHHA. just came back from SLE camp. it was ~ shall not comment. OH, still have St. John tmr. WA, grrr. iron uniformmmm. clean bootssss and snip off hair. DAMN IT LA. another long day tmr. won't be surprised if i fall asleep though. k going off to iron. BYEXZ

i found pretty people in Singapore. Clarke Quay :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

since i've chose the path, i shall walk the path with no regrets. i shall not turn around and try to walk back, because if i do, i'll be lying to myself.
Good morning! Haha i'm in school now now now. And i saw a bruise on the joint of my index finger. No wonder in my dreams i was feeling uncomfortable -.- and now i remember how i got this bruise. I accidentally slam my whole hand onto the wall. That's why. Ouch.
Q is sitting beside meee. Telling me about her secondary school life. Hehe :) hope i don't get
any freaking abrasion at the wrong places again if not history of the officer course will repeat itself. And the worst part is rachel and lyndia will not be there to spray that stinging antidote on the abrasion. Sucks much. Ahhha. Did i mention that the bag for the camp is alot lighter than before! Maybe because i'm already used to heavy and bulky bags. It's really light as compared to last time. Yayness :)
Omg, i forgot to submit consent form. just called my dad. He must have been thinking what trouble i got into again, as usual. Oh well. The camp would be enjoyable and i'm still deciding on whether to hide my phone or surrender it.. Hmm, how? Haahahaha. Okayxz. Going to end off now.
Have fun in the real world and i'll be back on friday :) byexz. Oh and people who are having a's, know it's kind of late but all the best! :) especially index number 0260, Chioh Pei Rong. Hahaha. Don't stress uh queen! You're going to be lonely. Hahahahahaha. K relaxxx. Good luck :)
Byexz <3
am so hungry. feel like eating. oh bother, camp tmr. till friday. be gone for a while. so have fun in the real world :)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I was fiddling with the knife, wondering what I should do with it. Thoughts filled my mind, about the past, people's reactions, as well as the pain. What for make life more miserable, it will not make things a tiny weeny bit better. Just let it go and things will be okay, as always.

Yes, I live like that. Always saying that things are going to be okay. I won't normally say what's in my mind. I choose to bear with the consequences and just let it be. As time pass, everything will get better until the next one another problem occurs. Some say i'm going to flare up really soon at this rate of bottling up everything. Rest assure, it won't be anytime soon.

Hahahahha. Hehe :) I can write a book uh! So sophisticated.. Bet all of you must have been intrigued by what I typed :D right? K kidding,

Alright, some of you must know that I have been grounded for the week or more. Not sure if i'm even allowed to go for the sle camp. Sighh. Sometimes I feel that there's an extent to being worried. Yes you're worried but that doesn't really give you the authority of disallowing every single one of the activities that i have. Maybe you think that this way, things will be better. However, in fact, things would be worse. It's always ne bringing the problems to you but it's always not you that brings the problems to me. You didn't realize that by doing all that, people wip look at me in a different eye. Now it's not about what you want and expect from me. It's what and who I want to be. If I voice out, I'll be at fault and if I stay mum, I'll be at fault too. Oh well~

k another redundant post, but whatever. Don't care. Take care loves <3

Monday, November 09, 2009

who wants to buy me my cookies?
oh hello! I'm like in school right now. Attending the pre-camp for sle. Kind of sucks to be attending leadership camps and courses over and over again. From primary school to secondary school to even now at tertiary level. Oh well~ Mr Singh is currently speaking about leadership to us. zzz.

I think i was sleeping like a log yesterday. I reached home around 5+? Then i went to shower and just lied on the bed. slept all the way.. It was mad. Then at 1235, i woke up and saw thousands of messages! Hahaha. K no la, only about 10. Read all, replied a few, and went back to sleep. Woke up at 530 to turn off the alarm and read more messages. Mad, i slept for close to 12 hours. Woo, so amazing. And now i'm still tired. Gahhh.

K, mr singh is kind of knowledgable :) but it's still boringgg. Yawnsss.

Have been thinking alot lately, flashbacks of the past appear, and i realised, i'm like the dumbest person possible. Obviously, i'm not going to list my dumb facts out here (just in case some people think that i'm very smart. And they should continue to think that way.. :D) going to list it somewhere else. Ayeeee, i'm nothing but bored. Someone should entertain me now..

Have been leaving this space empty lately, probably because i haven't been using the computer as much as i did previously. Even now, using this phone to type the post. K, i'm typing nonsense now. The space i've been ranting to, is probably.. Hmm, my heart. Hahahahh. Sounds retarded.

Dorcas and Aaron told me to go see a doctor because of the way i've been eating. Hahahha. Omg. See a doctor? Mad. Oh, and my dad says, the family might be going to take a jab due to the rising of H1N1 in Korea, and we're going there. Manxz, hate it. Pain bodoh! Eeeeeeee, the thought of the needle -.- gahhhhh.

K i should stop typing, if not it'll be so long and boring. Ok this post was redundant. you just wasted your time reading, sorry! :)

Saturday, November 07, 2009

OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD.....!!!!

S.H.E IS IN SINGAPOREEEEEEEEE. WALAO EHHHHHHHHHH! i should've known and then turn on the tv RIGHT AWAY to watch them. TOO BAD. it's too late :( AWW MAN. wth! i'm so sad! GAHHHHHHHHH. they're in SINGAPOREEEEEEE. shicks laaa..

oh well, nvm.
helloxz. finally i'm updating. yes and i can see the number of people coming dropping. HAHHA. i'm so exhausted by all the activities. seriously.. gahh. shall hang on, it's all going to end, very soon, hopefully. it's just energy-sucking! ahhhhhhhhhhh.

ooh, Bravery is my group for Advance Course. and they have been brilliant for the past 2 weeks. am very proud of them :) and also apologetic because i simply can't remember basic things such as theirpaper for discipline card and all. like wth i know, i'm like the worst officer ever. gahh. anything la. i'm sorry dear Bravery. but thank goodness for them if not i think i'll just collapse by now. they are so humourous and cheery! I LIKE! and at least they interact with each other except for some, hope they'll changee. HAHH. yes they will change. by the end of course. i believe they will. k anw, they have been the wall that kept me going on and going for the nco course. k THANK YOU DEAR GROUP. all the best for the rest of the course as well as the camp :)

and then, what more. i can't think anymore. brain block. HAHHA..

k anw, when i think of more things, i'll blog again. BYEBYE :)

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

feel like a damn ass. i deserve to die. bye. feel like cursing and swearing at myself, after recalling the past AND THE PRESENT.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

i'm so exhausted. when i came online, got 77 new emails to be read. what the heckk. HHAHA. anw.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE TAN. you should know what i want to tell you. just lead the rest of your life in happiness :) and damn, i know you TOO WELL.

i'm so bored. but there's alot of things to do. k shall start doing them. BYEXZ.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

OMG I'M DAMN TIREDDDD. 1:30AM! crazyyy... and right now i just finished inserting pictures into the powerpoint. now it's like so messy. SHOOTXZXZ. gahhh. going to do now.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

ahahha. i'm so annoyed. got to do this presentation for wednesday, and i have no clue on how to start on it and what to put in it. dang. deadmeat.
annoyed. annoyed. annoyed.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

oh manxz. i'm so sad when i'm suppose to be happy. while i was reading a book in the morning, lyndiateow called me and told me unbelievable news. i had to go for nco course as an instructor. THIS SATURDAY! wa, sadded to the max. because that means i would have to cut my gorgeous hair just to be there. oh what the. just when i decided to keep my hair, i had to cut it again. danggg. shucksssxzxz. so, look forward to my short short hair again, because it has to last for at least 6-7 weeks! WALAO. 5 consecutive saturdays taken away. then a week for camp. a week away with family. wow. how fun. k, someone please note down for me that i have to cut my hair, the first day of the course is saturday.
NOTE: CUT MY HAIR.
oh ya, tomorrow there's a meeting at 730pm. wa, i'm back to reality :( if i didn't had to come back from tanjong pinang :(
it sucks to be back somehow or rather,
results back on tuesday, don't even know how i would fare
more activities to go to
more responsibilities
more pressure
and all sorts of nonsense.
but it rocks to be back,
there'll be people who will be there
there'll be those familar smiles and laughters
there'll be such joy being around
everything would be fine.

oh, it wouldn't be that bad actually. but my poor hair :( walao ehhh. gahhh. dumb uniform group. hehehe. was kidding.
starting to miss tanjong pinang. the kids there, the whole group that went, the room, the dinner place, the meeting place, the painting place, the orphanage, the preschool. HAHAH. ayeeeee.

alright. might update later. see you :)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

hey ho mo mo.
i'm back from the awweeessoommeee trip to tanjong pinang. it was so great! all the experiences and memories are just so, unexplainableee. we interacted with orphans and preschool kids, did painting, painting and more painting. the food was so-so. some were so salty and some were so spicy. the bread there is SEDAPPP. met many many many new people there. some were crazy over keropok, some were just purely crazy. and it was just so fun being there. sad thing was, i was missing everyone here. ya, many names. knew many more things. like appreciating life and all. ahhhhh... so many things to say but i'm so lazy to type. so. yup, so long :)

byexzxzxzx.
DADA!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

hello :)

just when i came back and settle down at home. i'm off again to a CIP trip. so 930am tomorrow at tanah merah ferry terminal. be back the next week. HAHHA. so see you guys. miss me if you want to. Hehehe.

many thoughts in my brain now. like what is it going to be like there, what's going to happen. looking forward. also. just thinking about how different it is to be with one person. things have been different. and certain things bring us closer but certain things make us drift. now that sucks bad. if some things didn't happen the first place, the consequences will not be that bad as well.

i miss the way you talk to me
i miss the way you text me
i miss the time when you didn't know that person
i miss the times when there was only me and you
now it's changed. and oh wtf, i don't think it'll be the same anymore.
bye.
I'LL MISS YOU WHILE I'M DOING CIP THERE. :)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

ok hello. i'm popping jellybeans into my mouth and waiting for dorcas to leave the house. she is taking so longgg. hahaha. oh the jellybeans are nice la :D <3 jellybeansss. HAHHA. anw, will be going for class chalet. so DON'T MISS ME PEOPLE. ahha. i will miss you all more than how you all miss me :D
k i'll go find something to do in the house. it's so boringgg. LALALLA. bye.
oh, any emergency, please dial my number. 94 oh why am i giving you my nmber. HAHAh you all should have it uh! if not just call my boss to settle the problem. but i don't have a boss, i'm the boss myself -.- HAHHA. ok that's damn dumb. sorry bored person.

SEE YOU! XD

Monday, October 12, 2009

OH AND DID I TELL YOU ALL I GOT A NEW NAME?
it's PESH :D
my name is PESH. :)

it's just peishi minus the i's. yeah. so innovative :D

i'm pesh
i got like nothing to do on the computer. oh i'm so bored. what should i do? i feel so lost now that there's no exams and just don't need to really study now. hahaha. am i suppose to be happy or sad? HMM. haha.
anw, my phone was annoying me all the way for today. hahaha. partially because of the class chalet thing. i was mass messaging the whole class. the first time, only some replied me, like 5? the rest didn't -.- then after that, at about 8pm. i tried another way. i asked if all of them hate me! HAHHA. and that did it. majority of them replied. even the quieter ones in our class replied. omg. so happy. sorry, this is dumb thing to be happy of. HAHHA. but still :D eh it proves that not many hate me :D except for some who still don't reply. :(
ayeeee, whatever laa. HAHHA. i think my bills for the month, IT'LL BE EXPLODING LIKE CRAZY! thanks alot uhh. hahahha. oh my phone keeps buzzing away for every second i was in the train. i was about to fall asleep. but i can't. HAHHAH. *buzz buzz* and in a few seconds *buzz buzz* everyone is typing so quickly nowadays uhh! haha. my phone was lagging manxzxz.

ok <3 those who replied. and <3 those who didn't. HAHHA. see youuu :D

Saturday, October 10, 2009

yes. mood totally spoilt. was actually in a damn good mood. what the heck seriously -.-

so no blogging today. bye.

Sunday, October 04, 2009



i saw my long time crush today. ecstatic :)

anw. i'm so scared right now. it looks like i've been reading a whole chunk of things but it feels like nothing's going in. alright anyway. people study k! see you :)

waiting...

Friday, October 02, 2009

Hello everyone.


let me recall something first..


Delegation: the passing down of authority to perform tasks from a higher level of management to a lower level of management. the higher level cannot shirk his reponsibility.

Decentralisation: delegation of authorities of decision making from higher level of management to lower level of mangement.

IS IT OR NOT UH! gahh. notes on the bed. read read read.

BAS (blog again soon!) hahha -.-

Thursday, October 01, 2009


HEY HO.

Peishi Swirl
I'm suffering from a state of shock! There was a girl whom I don't know kept waving to me in the library. Being nice, I smiled back. When she left, sha said she was checking me out. Omg, I'm so scared right now. (facebook)

it was so scary REALLY. this girl. she's from nanyang (YES THAT'S RIGHT) she waved at me. at first i thought she was waving to someone else, so i just looked back (singaporean kpo ma) but there was no one. so i just smiled back. then after that, for several times, she kept looking over at our bench. about 6 plus. she left with her friend. then she walked past our bench. my back was facing her so obviously i can't see anything. sha was sitting opposite me. so she could see everything. then she went down the escalator. she turned and looked at us for the last time. and then IT WAS JUST SO SCARY. because she was looking directly into my eyes. hmm~ after she disappeared, i felt so weird and everything. and then that SHA JANEBELLEEE. keep scaring me and telling me that she's checking me out. like when she passed our bench, her eyes were like ~ WTF? and they kept saying : "it's either you know her or she's interested in you and checking you out." wth. ok IT'S OVER. i will not see the girl again in my life. so i shall not care. SHALL KEEP BREATHING AND MOVE ON. hahaha.

oh there was this other girl. sitting right opposite our bench. she kept looking over also. then i asked aaron, "is it just me or the girl keep looking over?" maybe i'm just being paranoid. BUT IT'S JUST SO. grr. nvm. i don't care. stop scaring me with these girlsxzxz. it's the first and last time i'll see them. HE-HE-HE.

anw. exams are just next week. SO STUDY HARD. :D

seeyouuuu

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

hello everyone. i think it's bad news for me for the following weeks.
-not be able to go for OTC outing. THAT'S DAMN SAD PLEASE. :(
-screwed papers up today, like totally.
-several problems coming up. (i have no idea why)

oh ya. have to help my sister with her art -.- which will be on accounting day also. hmm. shall chiong it on wednesday. study hard. do mob later.

dang i miss my eycandy. HAHHA. ok kidding -.-
i got many eyecandies :) no only 2.

didn't feel like there was an exam today. felt like i was doing some timed assignment or whatever. because JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THE EXAMS ARE HERE. omg. someone tell me why i'm still here. i'm off now. BYEBYEBYE

loves. all the best for everything k :)

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

NI HAO!

just dropping by to say...

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR PROMOS STARTING FROM TOMORROW MILLENIA PEOPLE! YOU CAN DO IT :) after the exams can play like mad already! SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT PLEASEE... -.-

anw. BEST OF LUCKS TO THE JC PEOPLEEEE. some are halfway through and some haven't even started. so whatever it is. ALL THE BEST :) you all sure can make it!

NOT FORGETTING DEAR JUNIORS. please study hard for your final year exams! they're very the important. SO ALSO, GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PAPERS!

JYJYJY!
ANYONE NEED OIL. just go to any petrol kiosk k :)

ALRIGHT GOODBYE! sleep early everyonexzxz.

Sunday, September 27, 2009


hello stalkers. how're all of you doinggggg?




currently completing the powerpoint on mosquitoes. i'm finally finishing. so glad.
done. see you.

Saturday, September 26, 2009


"huh...... but i'm so tired!" got to quit saying that. like seriously -.-

guys and girls going through the exam phase now. if you say that you're stressed, you're normal. and if you're not, it's not that you're not normal. maybe it's just you're prepared for the exam or you just simply don't care. so which are you?

haha. i'm so stressed and i can just die! now i normally end the day with a cold shower to drain off the heat for the day. HAHA. and being sick and having suspension for the whole of 2 weeks really just shot me in the head. because i missed out a huge load of chapters :( and now i have to study on my own. the worst part is, i don't understand the stuff. i was wishing that someone would teach me in my dream. wouldn't that be awesome? bet it is. did i mention i am very wery bery proud of myself the previous day. i did assignment 7A, 7D, 8A & a lil of 8B and completed them in just a few hours. it sucked up all my brain juices for the day. and i just fainted on the bed once i pen down the last equation. the feeling is just, GREAT! but the next day in school was so terrible. is everyone confused by what i'm typing? i am. omg. this is retarded.

anw. i'm sorry that i haven't really updated this damnthedumbdash@blogger for such a long time. it's just maybe i put all my thoughts in my mind and don't feel like putting it here. so, too bad :) i'm tiring myself everyday just to get past every problem that i'm facing in life now. i'm glad that when my problems are here, there're the exams to distract me from the problems. at least there's something for me to do instead of pondering on every single one of my redundant problems. i think i'm oh-so-ridiculous. i have so many issues, perhaps the world would be better off without me. (GAHH. SEE THAT'S MY PROBLEM. I'M ALWAYS USING DEATH TO RUN AWAY)

many things to do after the promos again. how good is that! extremely good i must say. OH YA! I'M SUPPOSE TO FINISH UP MY STUPID POWERPOINT! grr. annoyed annoyed. kay. i'm off now. see you guys.

ALL THE BEST FOR PROMOS EVERYONE. (regardless if you're millenians or not.)

and ELAINE TAN! JIA YOU! FOR WORKING :) you can do it! after you get your pay you can treat me breakfast dinner and lunch :) HEHE.

till next time. toodles!

Monday, September 21, 2009

the world can't be perfect for us human beings. and i don't know why. people are just no satisfied with what they have. they always want better things.

back in the olden days, when we have huge mobile phones with a long antenna, we want more. then we have small mobile phones with a small screen without colour. we are still not happy with it because it's dull. a new concept came and there it goes, a phone with a coloured screen with coloured fonts. still not good enough? how about a phone with a coloured screen and fonts and an additional camera! while. that could have been the best. but people just wanted more. a phone with colour+camera+ringtones! to share ringtones and pictures? INFRARED. however, that wasn't the end yet. there was something called the music player! there can be the latest pop songs in your phone, blasting out of the phone as and when you want it to. OH YA. there's the BLUETOOTH created too! sick of the clicking of buttons?! presenting to you the touch screen phones (: with games and pictures and all that you can find in the phone. not forgetting the internet that can be found in the phone! so right now currently, the latest are the touch screen phones with games and fun and laughter. there'll be more to come in the future because people will keep advancing and people will keep wanting better stuff!

back in the olden days, our grandparents watch television all squeezed up at one corner of the house. peering into a small wooden box with a black-and-white screen. there was hardly sound and everything was only in black-and-white. people's lives got better when colours were painted into these black and white pictures. but the televisions were still as bulky! so the designers were thinking of ways to "thin" the televisions. so here comes the plasma televisions and all. now. games can be played in the television. Televisions that can fit almost half of a room have been invented. and people just could not stop wanting more. then the slimmest television was invented. i don't know for what also! want the television to be so slim for what! hahahhaa. yeah anw..

see. just skip this whole post. it's REDUNDANT!
and the reason is because i'm not important in your life at all. and i will not care if i lose you in my life because you'll be happier without me. G&D!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

people have said:
there's something wrong with peishi.
YEAH I KNOW MAN.

and i want to go to australia. k random. BYEXZXZ. i haven't left home you see.
hey aliens. my blog is dead. HAHA.

my parents cheat my feelings la! but long story. shall skip it. and i'm going out to meet my big sissy. to have dinner. and the house is so dark and i can hardly see the keypad BUT i'm just too lazy to turn the lights on. so TOO BAD. ahha.

many many many many things happened in one week. and there're too much for me to say. but after this week, i feel that. life is unpredictable. HAHA. (ps: oh the lights turned on by itself! haha~) and anyway. i'm about to leave my home now.

goodbye. sorry for not updating.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

EH! ZONE 11! happy birthday to you! HAHA! don't do anything dumb to me man. i know your secretxzxz :D hahaha! be smarter than smart k! and live everyday with a smile! HAPPY 17TH! HAHAHA.
got many thoughts right now. but i'm too tired to blog. all i know is that my back and legs are aching like i-dont-know-what and my feet got 3 different tone colours. haha! how exciting. school tomorrow. assignments.. lessons and PE. wow.
anw. all the best to people having PROMOS starting tomorrow. those who PROMOS start in weeks. STUDY HARD! :D
see you :D

Friday, September 11, 2009

i'm sorry i broke it.
i can't believe i'm squatting on my chair just to tire myself. haha! yes. I AM SQUATTING ON MY CHAIR AND USING THE COMPUTER. haha. you would not want to know how i look like. because i think it's utterly weird. haha.

alright. so.
people who are suppose to be happy, go be happy
people who are suppose to be funny, go be funny
people who are suppose to be cheery, go be cheery.
but people who are suppose to be sad, go look for happy funny and cheery to make your day!

ok can't believe i just made that up! -.-so retarded. shit, i'm retarded. walao eh. i'm like talking to myself. i should stop it shouldn't i? YES. Y-E-S i said yes. so annoying right. i know. -.-

BYE!

Thursday, September 10, 2009


HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINNIE LOVE!
after i don't know how long already! YOU STILL CAN DO THAT?! amazing! kudos~
enjoy the rest of the day :D

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

09/09/09

totally awesome. haven't been blogging lately. mainly because i'm too lazy and tired. been thinking alot lately. didn't manage to get anyone's help to ease my brain. oh well! haha. and this computer is annoying me! can't even load a freaking movie! don't even know what's wrong. GAHHHH!

anw. today morning went to the "market". then afternoon, macs to study. with my mum (celine) and christine. distracted and celine said i was like a kid?! WHAT THE. haha. night went with family. and i paid practically for EVRYTHING so broke now. aww man! I'M SO SAD.

byebye

Saturday, September 05, 2009


gahhh. my feet are killing me. and i'm so tired now. so i think i'm just going to sleep and rest now. so byexxz :)
ps: the person i like is used as my phone's wallpaper. HAHA.

Friday, September 04, 2009

wa. everytime i would see. 911 and 1111. in one day.
when i see 911, i'll think that doomday is coming for me. i'm sorry, but seriously. it sounds dumb! HAHAH.
hello everyone.
im so bored. i got marching to do tomorrow. OMG. gahhh. one full day! thanks alot seriously -.-
i need to study.
i have to study.
i want to study.
i think i can't keep up with the standard that i'm suppose to have. and dad is not really pleased with me right now. regardless whether it's the attitude or the studies. perhaps i really haven't been doing well enough to show him. promos 2. that's it. but, HOW? i'm afraid. help me someone.

and you! talk to me. when you see this. if you know who you are, obviously. it's important.

all the best to people marching tomorrow
all the best to people studying tomorrow
all the best to people playing tomorrow
all the best to people who deserves this wish!
ALL THE BEST :D

see you.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

sorry for this annoying thing going in my mind. but my life is horrible now. damn it.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

THAT'S MY TEACHER ON TV!! hahaha. CHANNEL 8. WATCH NOW NOW. oh they spelt our school as Millenium Institute! heheh. my teacher is awesome :) she told us (09B2 chinese class) about her life so yup. HEHE. quite exciting! MY TEACHER LEHHH! er, crying on tv? rare sight. because she's like so strong manxzxz. know how to fight and do many things HEHE. oh and she really didn't lie! it was less than 5 advertisments before the show started again. HAA! hoho. i think i can't sleep tonight. got a bad feeling.so i'm going to ask someone to call me. HAHA. WOO. it's over! hehe.

anw. i don't know what i should say. i'm going to blog the other side. bye!
oh. didn't realise that the previous post was also 1111. HEHE. how exciting. anw. yesterday was. hmm. i don't know.

morning, went to school (MI) to celebrate. (sidenote: thank goodness i didn't have to do that dressing up thing. PHEW!) the performance was. awesome? just when it ended, i flew! down the stairs and went with sohail, annelise and adela to school (DSS) in a cab. then on the way there, i suddenly thought of akram! and then my sister called and told me akram was waiting at the busstop. HAHA. immediately, i told the driver to go one round and back to the school (MI) busstop to pick him up. both school can be reached in just one round you know. it's like seperated by only the forest. so if you want to go to dunearn just run through the forest and you'll reach. how exciting. then after that chilled around in DSS. kind of boring though. AND IT IS SO HUMID THERE. omg -.- felt like taking out my uniform! although i'm like back in Dunearn every other week, i feel so lost there yesterday. used to be there sitting in the hall watching the performance. now standing at the back. the atmosphere was not there already. don't know why. and the kids there have become more daring. the performance hasn't even ended and they were walking out already. nonsense. HAHHA.
after Dunearn, went with MI darlings, sylvia, fadzly and shawn. caught band slam. awesome! moi heartxzz melt for vanessa.



no i was kidding, it didn't melt. haha. make my heart melt? try harder! unless you xzxxzxzxz. maybe. HAHA. there's like a cut on my hand -.- k that was extremely random. oh! ytd als. kept bumping into saiful and co. OUR TELEPATHY IS TOO STRONG SAIFUL! hahaha.

going to meet doris later. so. see you guys soon!
zai-jian!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Friday, August 28, 2009

IT'S 11:11PM!




HI CELINE TAN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! YOU'RE AS OLD AS I AM NOW! HEHE. and it's exactly your 17th birthday now! because it's 11PM! see, i still remember. hehehe. hope you liked the surprise and, sorry about leaving earlier manxzx. hahah! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! and wish you all the very bestttt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUSTARD.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY! STUDY HARD OKXZXZ :)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

HI. to youknowwho.
i initially drew this. to make a joke out of it... (but it wasn't really funny was it?)

so since paint is available...


told you i can't draw. especially with a laptoppp.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

HAHHAA. hi everyone.


we're just from different schools you know...

centre parting! hahaha. THE trend
nice right. HEHE.

and they did the peishi's smile again :D

YAY. THANKS ALOT GUYS. (for coming to my house again)
yes i have awesome friends. not denying it :)
have i ever told you all my favourite sign? it's this one "~" HAHHA! oh, somehow, i think i remember telling some people about it. DID I? oh yes i did. hahaha. just read it again la. you see, this sign has an up and a down, we can use this sign to represent our life. there're full of ups and downs in our life. eh then what uh? know what i'll continue some other time, if i remember. because i just know something, again. danggggg.. bye
and, i lost, again.

Monday, August 24, 2009


what if the world was like that? no technology? no anything! only the mountains! and my house being there! wouldn't it be interesting? hehe.


this is the new creature i created. it is called. Vicki. haha!



lalala~

Sunday, August 23, 2009

perhaps, that's not how things work for me. oh well. i got to admit, my heart is broken. HAHAH! oh well, if you need me then just come. HAHAH. if you don't then don't come. and i'll still be here. because i won't die that early yet :) have fun with your life! <3
hi, my birthday's over.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

hello it's the 22 August and at 11:11pm. i'm posting this. HAHA.
right, thank you to everybody who have wished me happy birthday :D it's definitely too long to list. surprisingly, there're many unexpected people who wished me. and those who i expected didn't! HAHHA. how amazing. maybe they forgotten or didn't know. oh well.. it's just a birthday.
honestly, i felt like crap on this very day. it seemed that nothing was going right. and it's the first time in all my birthdays that i felt like crying because i felt like i was alone. like. ALL ALONE. yeah, it was quite horrible. so i just went to sleep. till about 9+ i woke up and cut the cake. and played DAIDI till about now? then my relatives went home. so now i'm just replying those on facebook who have wished and feeling sleepy again. HMM~

my miniest sister gave me a card. and it was so cute. haha! and my cousin gave me a hug just now. she was so small. HAHAH. ok not small. just ya! ahaha. CHIOHPEIXUAN. YOU OWE ME A CARD. ahhaha. AND MARCUSCHIOH! YOU OWE ME 5BUCKS! FOR LOSING TO ME IN DAIDI!

oh anw. really thanks for the wishes. made my day better :)
and now the day is going to be over in 20 minutes. so i'll just. ya you know. hahaha.

goodbye.

one word, disappointment.

Friday, August 21, 2009

i got a weird friend..

elaine says (11:06 PM):
i think of you, i think for you.
eu hurt mi.
eu hurt mi til my forehead is bleeding.
eu hurt mi.

elaine says (11:24 PM):
i also dont want
i want to spend the day with you
Peishi Swirl says, damnthedumbdash.blogspot.com says (11:25 PM):
what. trying to melt my heart is it?
not working...

see what i mean? hahaha.

walao eh. i miss you la. you miss me too is it? 1111 :D HAHAHA! must be. you! think you're asleep now anw.
<3
haha. i as planning on writing about my thoughts when i saw people playing in the park just now. maybe tonight. after tuition or something. hehehe.

ANYWAY, greatest thanks to dorcas, fadilla, sha and aaron :D for the short afternoon spent, with the mini cake and the meal :D lurbxzxz euu all! also, wishes from classmates and schoolmates. CANDYTOOK! you also! for calling me after school to wish moiii :D HAHAH!

post more tonight.
i just don't get it. do you?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

hey people. this is a must-read :D hahaha. not forcing though.

before i start to tell you what happened today. let me say something. after reading much. I SW**R, those who trust my eyes and my mind. talk to me. you know who you are. I PROMISE. just talk to me! i got things to tell you. like seriously. hmm... and people. learn to trust my mind and my eyes. because i can see things that people can't. HAHAHA. right right? those who ya.. hahaha. you know it.

so today has been AWESOME. morning had irp. and mr cheng DON'T WANT TO GIVE ME AN IRP PAPER. I LEFT MY AT HOME! grr. then cannot give me new one? nvm -.- hahhaha. don't waste my time on him. so i just did the questions from dorcas's paper. good student right? I KNOW. hehehe. then had pe. played this game. and i think my class is awesome. haha. we kept quabbling over some lame stuff. then econs. and chinese. and then ht period again. (oh. ps, I THINK I WAS LIKE THE ONLY PERSON IN CLASS WHO SUBMITTED THAT THING LA. everyone was chatting away in class. omg good student, really. haha) photo taking for basketball and PLAY BALL! wooo~ today's training was incredibly fun. i don't know why. we did some retarded drills which made us dizzy and tired. haha! then played match with kerrie, candy and milli after debrief (DAMN FUN! kept teaming up with kerrie. and did many ridiculous stuff, i'll take away the details before it gets too long.)

met elaine and qianmei at westmall AND KNOW WHATTT? I GOT TO FINALLY EAT MY FRIED RICEE!! wooooo~ i felt like i was in heaven when i took the first mouth (OK THAT'S WAY TOO EXAGGERATING) haha dorcas tang. i got my fried rice liaoxzxz.

qm: eh! my mother damn fierce. i don't dare go home! peishi, can you your house there the playground to hide?
ps: HUH! why your mum scold? then your test how?
qm: i don't know. must let my mum cool down first.
ps: ok! go my house.

CHEY. so steady right. hehehe.
then i went home with elaine and qianmei. when i walked into my home. I SAW EVERYBODY. then suddenly.... (*plays the happy birthday song) christine, huldah, celine, winnie pop out from my house's staircase. holding on a cake. WALAO. i was like. :O :O :O WHAT THE HECK. hahaha. what a surprise :D shocked and i was at a loss for words. HAHHA. also... i was ANGRY (no i wasn't) with qianmei! BECAUSE SHE LIED TO ME! AND I BELIEVED HER! i feel so gullible now. hmm~ anw. THANKS GUYS. I LUBZXZ EUU ALL ALOT ALOT AND MANY MANY. hhahahha. and so, that's 1 down. maybe that's the only one. HAHHA. thanks alot okxzxzx. and elaine, qianmei, GO JOIN MEDIACORP LA. so good at acting. THANKS UH!

oh. MR SAIFUL. CHEER UP :D MISS ONG QIANMEI ALSO. ALL SO DOWN. WALAO EH... OH AND BLUE SKY. BEFORE YOU TURN INTO GREY SKY. CHEER UP TOO :D

i think my friends are awesomexzxzx. regardless where they're from. india, china, japan, america. ANYWHERE. they are awesome! haha. my mum was just saying. you're like such a big shot -.- THEN I WAS LIKE. HMM... ahahah.
oh. and greatest apologies to sylvia and shawn. I REALLY DIDN'T SEE YOU ALL AT THE CANTEEN LEHXZXZ :(

BYEBYEBYE. i'm so happy. :D
3 more days! :D

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


They might be my new love :) hahaha.


don't worry, they're still the top!

HAHHA! the truth is, i onlyknow one song from the above band. HAHHA. but they're awesome laaa.

school was very boring today. i was feeling so lonely la.dorcas and fadilla didn't come. fadilla only came in the afternoon. thank goodness there were still my classmates. went to buy stuff after school. and i'm home now.
oh and i just realised that my birthday is coming, after opening up my diary :D HAHAH! no kidding. oh well, maybe this year is nothing. HAHHA!

tomorrow got training againxzxzxz!

BYE

Monday, August 17, 2009

Sunday, August 16, 2009

haha. hello. today is such a tiring day. rushing to and fro. morning went for expt meeting, knew many things. had to plan sec 1 orientation. come up with more stuff. afternoon, went down to lavender for footdrills section. felt so accomplished :) left in the evening and headed down to cck to meet my dearest peeps. had to leave early. so sorry guys :( let the pictures do the talking manxzxz. they're the awesome-st people!


they did the peishi smile :)

then the zijian's one.
this is a family photo! HAHHAA.
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we were acting like _.
the winnie's pose? HAHHA!
the PIG pose!
there're many more at fb. so check them out. hahaha. oh ya. anyone wants their number? i'll give them to you now! FOR FREE! on my blog :D
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Celine: 9*******
Christine: 9*******
Elaine: 8*******
Huldah: 8*******
Winnie: 9*******
Zijian: 9*******
you didn't really think i'll give you their numbers did you? HAHHHA. go guess la! maybe after 100 godzilla years then you'll figure it out. and by the time they would have changed their numbers already. HAHAHA! alright anw. i'll tell you more about them another time. 2AM! how exciting! :D
oh and my grandma just called me earlier. she said everyone's coming over to my home next week because it's my birthday. then i was like. HUH? haha. okok. the convo..
grands: next week everyone's going to your house to celebrate! (in chinese)
me: orh.
grands: ya. so it won't be so troublesome.. next week they can help you celebrate also!
me: celebrate what?
grands: your birthday what! you forgot next week?
me: huh? oh ya.
grands: you forget already? so next week everyone's coming ok.
me: orh. ok! bye.
HAHHA! woo. so exciting! it's coming coming comingggg. and i kind of forgot about it. hmm.. whatever la. i don't know what else to type anymore. so see you guys around. byexzxzx.
i'm disappointed in you. shall not bother anymore.

Friday, August 14, 2009

hey ho people. i'm feeling really bad today. like deep down in my heart. grrxzxz. oh whatever.

morning went to school. dorcas didn't come. had chinese class and gp class. haa. during break went to ohub to complete the project. and cheryl saiful and i were like cursing much more than doing the project. simply because the computer wasn't working with us. it keeps giving us error reports. annoying thing. after school, assembly. hung around. and headed over to town. was suppose to watch a movie but we were ALL late. oh there was fadilla, dorcas, yenping, rachel and her 2 nieces. oh ya, wenxi and her friend was there for a while too. it was like a babysitting day and the kids were like so fortunate. when they want to get carried, they'll get it. HAHA. omg mind you, they're heavy. your muscles can jsut ache like crazy man. and yes, now my arms are aching. HEHEHE.

another busy day tmr. meeting in the morning and in the afternoon i've got some otc thing. to march and all that. OH NO. FOOTDRILLS :( ahahaha.

alright. i'm still feeling so sulky. oh man. whatever. going to sleep. goodnightxzxz.

i just really want to be who i really want to be.
oh shit. one moment i was still laughing happily at the SNSD stuff. and the next moment, when i realised something was wrong, my mood just went down all the way to hell. oh man. what should i do? i have no idea at all. oh what the heck. someone, help me! stay strong, (the person) you are strong.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

back to class tomorrow. like finally! people of 09B2! i'm coming back :D HAHHA!

i had to write something for this sweden exchange programme thing. the questions were basically asking how we could contribute. and what aspects of Singapore we would want to being there. what aspects we want to learn from Swenden. and what product we intend to sell there. HMM? i was gathering ideas about what to write for the contributions. and i intended to write blog because i have this damnthedumbdash. but then my friends asked. do you blog with maturity? or something like that. then someone else said. NO. immediately. come to think of it. it's true. and i use all these xzxzxzxxzx thing. HAHA. aiya. who cares la. maybe people think i'm childish. which i can't argue to it. because maybe i really am.

it's really hard to be someone people want you to be. and pressure rises when people expect something from you. like they expect you to say something after they told you something. but if it's a bad day, you won't even want to bother about anything. in order to live to their expectations, you will have to dig your brains out and slog it all out just to answer their questions. are we living to others expectations or for our own expectations. i wonder.

i'm at a loss. i just don't know what to do now. help me.
there's training tmr. AWW MAN! grr. alright. have a great day everyone.
and CHEER UP to whoever's down. being sad is not helping at all. turn that frown upside down to make it a smile. a smile a day keeps your unhappiness away :D

byexzxzxz

Monday, August 10, 2009

She always puts a strong font in front of others.
Her fragility is only for me.
I love to be the one to hold on to her.
I want to be the only one.
You're beautiful.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

HAHHA! to prove my worth! i shall show you the pictures i take. JUST SO AWESOME. with just one camera. HAHHA!

FIZAH!

FADILLAAA.

SYLVIA LIEWWW!

FADILLA SHOULD'VE JUMPED!

SEE. SO NICE RIGHT..

AWESOME LAAA..

HAHHAHA. SO DUMB.

I CAN JUST BE SYLVIA'S PHOTOGRAPHER. want notxzxz!? hehehe.

woooo..

a photoshoot in school..

when they were too busy thinking of posts..

HAHHA! DORCAS TANGGG

i'm so proud :D ahhaa

WEE U WEEEEETTT..

haha! because they were talking and talking. then i just took this pictureee~

HAHA SHAWN!

hehehe.

ROMAN 3...
so.. i shall just save the best for the lastt.HAHAHA! SEEEE...

this is like the best picture ever taken. AWESOME RIGHT.. coolioxzxzzxz...

all taken by yours truly! hehehe! with sylvia liew kaitong's awesome camera! amazed? hehehe! so, who want to employ me? come la. i charge cheap cheap onexzxzxz! see who you are, maybe no need money k! hahaha! :D aren't you all impressed? hehehe! bet you all are. so, finally pictures on my blog eh! hahaha!
alrightxzzx. i don'tknow what more to post. shall post next time. byexzxzx! hahah!

Friday, August 07, 2009




PINK PINK PINK! hahaha so retarded. and the national day songs are still stuck in my head. hahaa! don't know why siaxzxz. oh no oh no! and i just keep singing and singing non-stop. i'm going crazy!
SEE YOU GUYS.