Sunday, June 29, 2008

just move on with your life. that's all i'm going to say.

and for those people who heard about what i did and have changed your opinion of me, while, it's up to you to think what you want to think. i will not try to please everyone like i did. say whatever you want. i'm not going to care. you don't have to know the reason, you just live without the reason. sometimes, things just happen without a reason, YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW? k bye.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

people, new blogskin. hahaha. i wanted something white, so here it goes. i don't care how it looks la ok :D
ANYWAY. WANT ME TO LINK YOU? then put down your link :D i'll find someway and sometime to link you. BYE PEOPLE!
PEOPLE PEOPLE. i'd like to introduce you some people okk. HAHA :D bet you all know them too.
OK. in alphabetical order okk.
FIRST UP. CELINE TAN. uhh, all those people, don't anyhow think okk. :D


AND NEXT, CHRISTINE WONG!

MM HMM, ELAINE TAN!

HAHA, HULDAH CHIN
WINNIE ONG!
AND LAST OF ALL, WONG ZIJIAN!!
these people rock ok :D of course, you all rock too.
while celine, christine, elaine, huldah and winnie came over yesterday. though sick, but nevermind :D haha. ZIJIAN YOU'RE MISSED STILL :D
they came. and studied and ate tangyuan. HAHA. ok then, at 3, we went out to the market. to rent dvds and buy waffles. it was raining -.- and so, all had umbrellas and we walked there. yup, we got everything and took the bus 963 back to the house. guess what people? we were taking pictures and we forgot the most important thing, to alight from the bus. HAHA. yup, we were being crazy on the bus and when the bus past my house, we were like. OMG. OMG! haha. so, we stopped at the next stop and walked back. SO DUMB MAN!! and we were laughing all the wayy. ok that's the funniest thing that happened this holiday. SERIOUSLY. so funny. and it was with this bunch of friends i have. ZIJIAN! you should have been here!! :D and so, my mum woke up by then already. kinda spoiled the whole atmosphere. sighhh. celine, christine and huldah left at about 5. elaine and winnie left at 645? yup.
hey hey! guess what? if it wasn't for their trip down, i think i'll be i don't know? brooding at home :( YOU GUYS ROCK OK! yay. ok ya :D byebye.
AND CELINE TAN, YOU GOT TO CHEER UP ALRIGHT!
bye people. :D i know you're jealous of me knowing these people. OK I WAS TOTALLY KIDDING.
one more thing, to celine, christine, elaine, huldah, winnie and zijian! CREDITS TO FRIENDSTER :D hahaha. proud to see your face here huh? although not many people come to read :)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

ok went through my primary school friends stuff. ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE THEM NOW, WHOA! yeah, the word is WHOA! seriously, guys, OMG MAN. haha must be because i haven't seen them in decades yup.
PEOPLE PEOPLE, YOU GUYS HAVE CHANGED! TO BECOME, GROWN-UPS! woohoo! ok lame -.- BUT WHOA MANNNN yup. even the person who i. ok nvm, only elaine knows :D hushhh. haha. well, to all of you, best of luck mann :D and if any of you read this, i still love you all :D and i want to play basketball with you all again!! :D

yup, many things happened in the holidays. ok not many things. just study like mad. really can go bonkers. and additional pressure by annoymous people. shan't name them out. MADNESS LEH. ALREADY SO F-ED UP ALREADY STILL WANT ADD. mcnuggets man you all. grr. i think i'm going to be sick.
you know, whenever i look at my previous pictures, letters, etc. i'll remember every single detail about what happened. and i want to post it out. but it happened so long agooo. no one will want to view it right? EH! ANY OF YOU WANT TO VIEW TELL ME AND I SHALL POST IT OUT :D

seriously, this is the first time i have such a hard time trying to know someone. i believe that i have done enough and it's up to her already. yup. good luck to you :D


BYE!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

guess what people? the only thing i feel like doing now is cry. my maid go home already!! omg :( it's not lame to cry over a maid that is going home right? BUT THIS MAID HERE, RUMIAH, knows so much about me and i don't want her to go. ok anyway i'll miss you always! come back soon ok :(

Wednesday, June 11, 2008


see! canvas!


jason drew it!nice!?!?!






guy at work.

miss R painted it. but mingliang spoilt it in the end AHAHA.


YAY! I STARTED ON MY CANVAS! so happy. k not exactly, cos that means, i'm going to die. as here will be painting. sighhh.

k and anyway, i'm sorry to the person who i disappointed. somehow i feel, whatever i do, it'll always me who is doing the wrong thing. I'M SORRY OK? i know this don't mean much to you, but i'm saying sorry from my heart. i care, but i don't know why, the way of how i care is changing already it's just LIKE THAT LA?

whoever's thinking of changing me, i know MANY people is trying to. please, just leave me alone for the time being. don't think that i don't want to change. i tried before. but i just can't ok? don't say i didn't try, i did. images just keep appearing in my head. how i know i'll be like that? it's been a long time ok. so just wait for good news or just stick with this news ok. i'm sorry if i disappoint you.

BYE. next up, a bad photographer. and anw, my internet sucks now. always disconnecting. MCNUGGETS!!!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

as quoted by mjt.

pure love is.
loving the person and when shes happy, you're happy.
you love the person you don't have to own her but to see that she is happy and living a happy life
that she is growing to be good and that you won't be jealous, upset or emo when she loves someone else.

thanks for directing that to me.
maybe i should just back off. yup, that's what i'm gonna do.

Coversation with myself. don't bother people, in case it gets too scary.

peishi, you don't have to know everything. you don't have the right to.

yup ok i know. i know what to do already. maybe it'll be just the way it is, like that?

you just can't help it you know? you don't have to please everyone. you just be who you are.

yeah i know, i already tried. don't have to brood over this matter.

but it's not a small matter, it's like you have to care, but you don't know how.

why the hell should you care? like what people say, they are taking advantage of you.

... i have to care for this girl ok. i'm not there whenever she needs me. it's feels kind of weird though. even though i told her already, but it just feels like a responsibilty.

you being like a FUCKING NANNY.

whatever, shut up. it's just, i have to care. but i don't know how.

you're freaking wasting your time and brain space for this matter.

i don't think so. any matter in my head is an important matter, regardless whether it's big or small.

YEAH OKOK I LOSE!! I GIVE UP. ahah

yay. i win! you lose. :P

oh wait, one more thing, your vulgarities are influencing people

oh really? ok i'll change then :D thanks.

you're welcome.

END OF CONVERSATION

people, please do not mind that conversation. it's somehow like the good and bad in my head talking to each other. yup.

yeah people people, I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS NEW GIRL. her name is CARMEN :D please, don't be jealous. kidding.

oh ya. AND HELLO WINNIE!!!!! YOUR NAME IS HERE!!! AND IN CASE THE NOT ELAINE GETS JEALOUS. HELLO NOT ELAINE, YOUR NAME IS HERE TOO!!! :D

Friday, June 06, 2008

1) if your lover betray you, wad will your first reaction be?
I'll be upset. DUH?!

2) if you can have a dream to come true, what will it be?
I want N to be happy. seriously.

3) wad will your dream wedding be like?
Sharmen kind.

4) are you confuse as to wad lies ahead of you?
I guess so.

5) wad's your ideal lover like?
Lets see, ask me yourself.

6) which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?t
This question is familar. OH, enqi told me about it before. somehow, ask me yourself again.

7) how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Lol. This question is, not forever of course. wait till i actually tell the person that i like her.

8) if the person you secretly like is attached, wad would you do?
While, she is now. I'll still be watching and seeing whether her other half does anything mean to her, which he already did. mcnuggets.

9) is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
Yes.

10) are you in love or being loved now?
In love. Being loved? maybe in a few hundred years.

11) how do you see yourself in ten years' time?
Like that?

12) who are currently the most important person to you?
Only one uh? N lor.

13) wad kind of person do you think the person had tagged you is?
Mad.

14) would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Depends. SINGLE AND RICH! because i can, ask me yourself.

15) wad is the first thing you do every morning?
Open wo de eyes.

16) would you give all in a relationship?
Depends on who the other half is.

17) if you fall in love with 2 ppl simuntaneously, who would you pick?
I'll choose the one who i can _ first! ask me yourself again :D HAHAHA.

18) wad type of friends do you like?
All kinds.

19) what would you like to do with your boy?
I don't have a boy and never will have one.

20) wad would you name your children in the future?
Tom, Dick or Harry.

THE FIRST PERSON WHO'S GONNA ASK ME STUFF OR COMMENT WIL BE ELAINE TANN!! HAHA :D
look. what the fuck is wrong with you? you're going "i miss her" and everything. and when i talk to you. you make it seem like if i weren't there, it'll be fine too. it's like. i tried talking to you but you just ya wth, COME ON REFLECT ON WHAT YOU DO? you think it will have no effect on yourself. but think, the person you're talking to is NOT a robot but has feelings. omg. don't you think by saying all those SHIT will make me feel good? you always don't want to let me understand you. fine but when i want to understand you better, you won't let me. WHAT IS THIS? seriously, things are so obvious and i know it myself. it's like something that can be seen but you just won't admit it. TELL ME WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? YOU WANT ME TO DIE IN FRONT OF YOU? think man think. i'm already TRYING MY FREAKING BEST TO TRY TO COMMUNICATE AND MAKE THINGS BETTER. and there you are, .. I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU'RE DOING THAT? trust me, i don't feel good about it ok. you're DEMORALISING MY MOOD. when i change the fucking atmosphere, you just i don't know what's it you're doing. someone who already tries their best to do something but only shit returns. it SUCKS OK. i'm not writing this on purpose. but i just can't find anymore things to pour out everything in my heart. i've already tried. seriously. i gave in all that i can give in. like i always do. what more do you want me to do? work for you as a full-time depressed person for you to say all disappointing things to!? damn it man.
whatever it is, whenever you need me, come look for me. i know it'll be hard. but i don't know? maybe you can have those new people in your life to talk to. they may be better people to talk to. i don't know. ya ok.

PEOPLE, THIS IS WRITTEN OUT OF FRUSTRATION. so ya understand please.
1Who in this world have you loved like you’ve never loved before?
That girl in my mind.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Duh.

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
Freaking math in pe office.

4. When did you last cry?
Just 2 days ago.

5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread?

6. What do you want in your life right now?
Are you asking the obvious? But it’s impossible.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
None, I just run.

8. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
My freaking pillow.

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
Come see for yourself.

10. Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
I don’t have an inbox now :( But it's the many "love ya" by _ _ _ _ _ _ i think.

11. Do you tends to make a relationships complicated?
Well, honestly, I haven’t been into one.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
The Hottie and the Nottie.

14. What are you proud of?
I’m proud to be a Le_ _ _ _ _

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
It would be from Celine. But I can’t remember what. Cos I don’t have a phone. Dang.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Let’s see. BEAUTIFUL GIRLS IN CHINESE AND ENGLISH.

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
Have. Go ask around, I’m not telling you. Lim Shu Juan is a perfect person to ask from.

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
Eh. I think it’s from Enqi. It said something like, since you don’t care and blah blah. Yup.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
I don’t remember sleeping.

20. Are you currently happy?
Somehow yes and somehow, no.

21. Who gives you best advice?
Elaine Tan & Nur Syazwani & Lim Shu Juan & A LOT OF PEOPLE.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Yeah, it’s good!

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Hmm, no one. I think.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes, obviously.

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Hmm, the tv show.

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Nope, it’s weird.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
I don’t know. No phone, what to do?

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. Of course. My heart breaks for every little single small thing. Dumb right?

29. What annoys you most in a person?
Stubborn-ness.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
No.

32. What is the colour of your room?
White and Purple. It’s unfinished.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
No, money can’t bring happiness.

34. Why do you love the person you love?
That’s a question I cannot never answer and have been asking myself.

35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
Me?

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Eh, I was about to hug ruiqi. But it’s not right. So I didn’t. the last person was. I can’t remember.

37. What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on?
Tell her I like her la DUH? Or tell her. bu yao zou, wo xi huan ni.

38. Do you have a life?
What am I having now?

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
Yes.

40. What do you regret most?
The time when I could tell her but I didn’t and now she’s gone.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Miss N.

42. Last time you smiled?
For real or fake? Real, last day of d&d camp.

43. Have you changed this year?
Yes, a lot.

44. What are you listening to right now?
The keyboard typing sound?

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Cheryl Ho and Elaine Tan.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Eh. Many. Keep waiting is one of them.

48.Do you want someone you can't have?
Mm Hmm.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yup.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in week?
To, I can’t remember.

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
Using the computer.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
I don’t have one.

53. What song describe your love life?
Wei Ni Xie Shi, Many.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
I think so? Does she?

55. Who always make you laughs?
Many people.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese, my own language.

57. What are you planning to do to win your crush’s heart?
I’ll just keep waiting and try to help her whenever she needs me. I doubt she’ll need me anyway.

58. What your middle name?
Pei?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Settle some stuff, think again and study with Elaine Tan.

60. What do you think you are like?
I don’t really judge myself.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
My loved ones.

62.Where have you been today?
School, Home, Bukit Batok.

63. What game do you play often?
Gold Miner, the Burger Game.

64. Who are you missing right now?
My Miss N.

65. If you've to choose between friend & love, who will you choose?
Suprisingly, both.

66. What are you doing right now?
Having an aching stomach and thinking.

67. Which primary school are you from?
PEI HWA PRESBYTERIAN PRIMARY SCHOOL!

68. Which CCA are you in?
THE SAINT JOHN AMBULANCE BRIGADE!

69. What emotion you like to show?
All kinds.

70. What is life to you?
Pressurising and a lot more.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Just let it stay there and not let it out until I cannot take it anymore.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Elaine Tan, Cheryl Ho, Nur Syazwani, FOO Lilin, Rowena.

73. What do you admire the most?
The Sun who sees her everyday.

74. Which month are you born in?
August

75. How are you feeling right now?
Pain.

76. What is the time now?
0025

77. What will you do if your crush ask you to give her a kiss?
I think I’ll give her one, but in the end, I won’t.

78. When was the last time you saw your crush?
Today.

79. What was the last MAJOR thing you did for your crush?
Send her home.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Just stone there?

81. What was the most EXTREME punishment you were given and the cause of it was your crush?
I got kicked out of my home.

82. Do you feel guilty?
Always.

83. Who do you complain to?
My complaint box! Miss Lim Shu Juan!

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Lim Shu Juan, Elaine Tan, ALL MY FRIENDS. REALLY.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes.

86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
I would want to be with her and be accepted by everyone for who I am.

87. Who is your crush?
This is LAME. Whoever knows me well enough will know.

88. What was the last thing you got accused about?
Lying.

89. Are you receiving advice now?
Yes, by my very own junior and my friends.

90. Are you Straight, Bisexual or Homosexual?
I think the previous answers answered your question already.

91. What feeling you hate the most?
being accused, alone, ignored, SPARETYRE and a lot more.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes, that’s why I haven’t said anything yet.

93. What kind of people will you get irritated to?
People who keep asking and asking.

94. Who cares for you the most?
My family and since the last day of d&d camp, many more people. My friends and dear MISS N.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My family and Miss N.

96. What'll you bring when you fight?
Myself.


97. What will you do for your crush?
Anything possible.

98. What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
Learn to care for myself. But will soon give up and feel like dying.

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Lets see. It depends. Then we’ll have a threesome! Woohoo. K only some people know what that means.

100. What is the name of the person u have a crush on?
Eh wth!? Must i? I can’t admit. Haha. If she reads this. I’m beyond dead. And if my family reads this, I’m going to jump down from the tallest building.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it.Next, list 7 people whom you would you want them to do this, at the end of the post.Notify them in their tag box that he/she has been tagged.

DOWAN LEHHH!

something extra for the people who read my blog! tag and i'll know who reads my blog ok :D if the response is high, i'l update :D